I looked at her one last time with pain welling up in my eyes, though I had no regret in my heart. I thought it to be more for her benefit than mine, so without a word, I turned and began to walk. She and I both understood where I was headed, and I knew she wouldn't dare respond for fear of appearing weak, heaven forbid anywhere near as "fragile" as I. Artwork: https://www.deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/Bear-Trap-544632728 Song: https://radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/ill-go Beyond the weathered remains we called home, there began a path that stretched for many miles, weaving through vast plains full of wildlife and overabundant in perpetually blooming flora, eventually arriving at a massive clearing. It appeared benign, but I felt differently. All of nature, even so far as the sky above, waved softy in uncertainty, in infinity; it was as if I was peering through time itself, bearing witness to a place surpassing comprehension. A sacred place, perhaps, unfathomably far from any mark of civilization...we'd travelled before, but even she, in her seemingly infinite strength, would not go further. She simply looked into the horizon with emptiness in her eyes. Silence permeated the air; the wind stirred softly. From then, she, as I would later, turned and began to walk. She, like I, said no more from then on. I believe that we'd both arrived at a similar understanding. The void within me longed to find purpose, and led me to that same path. "I'll go," I thought. I'm the only one that ever could. -- This is one of the first songs on an album I'm working on, meant to be a follow up to The Fulcrum. I wasn't really too sure what to do for this, because everything I'd attempted just didn't get the point across, but it clicked eventually, after listening to other songs that dealt well with bitter souls and feelings of regret. It's kind of strange; I ended up taking a break from this to clear my mind, and when I came back, I just understood it because I felt it. I've been feeling rather isolated as of late both by and without choice, and I feel this is the lingering sentiment that I'll be leaving with. I don't know when, but for all of those that weren't there for me despite all the times I was there for them, I'm going, and I'm never coming back. I've sacrificed so much of my life for others that forget I even exist, and I'm done. I harbor no hatred, just disappointment. Maybe they'll find someone to replace me, or maybe they'll pay more attention to the friends they have left. Whatever the case may be, I'm moving forward with confidence, because there is no opportunity here for the life I desire. Anything donated will be going toward helping me move; I'm very grateful for your support, and I hope this album will be the undertaking you all and I expect it to be. For the rest of my work, it's all on bandcamp: https://radiarc.bandcamp.com/ 13 albums, an EP, plus some stuff that isn't on youtube. I've also got a patreon, and I make it a priority to upload at least once per month, barring any major life changes: https://www.patreon.com/radiarc I thought I was going to finish the battle theme, but I still don't have a proper picture for the album, and I'm not going to continue working on it until I do. I've got a good amount of tracks before the whole project is done, so it's not too big a deal, but that song is too important for me to not be patient. No idea what's up next, but it'll probably be more exploration, and I'm quite eager to continue working on it. Thank you for listening, and thank you for sticking with me for all this time. Stay awesome.