She is here.

https://radiarc.bandcamp.com/track/the-familiar

Artwork: https://www.deviantart.com/sharpieboss/art/Splitting-Elements-575465751

As she nears, I am still, though troubled and stricken with a fear greater than I can comprehend, my life slipping through the space between the fingers of a clenched fist.
Breathe.
She follows me. Her presence emanates and manifests in the darkness of shadows cast by the only saving grace, shining fiercely in front of me; from the null, she reaches out to me, and I tremble, pulling away and walking into the light, blinding me.
Breathe.
I run, and she follows, ever closer. Her pull surrounds me, and I lose sense of all direction and clarity. The light never fades, yet, I fall, and I can't stop. I land, broken, but she nears, and I run.
Breathe.
The precipice, the beyond, the self, the other. She does not waver. The light, the darkness, the void. She remains. The hope, the dream, the nightmare, the last thread of my waning sanity and will. She reaches out, and I gasp.
I can't.
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If you like what you hear, please check out the rest of my bandcamp:
https://radiarc.bandcamp.com/
12 albums, an EP, plus some stuff you won't find anywhere on youtube.

And, if you're feeling particularly generous, I also have a patreon:
https://www.patreon.com/radiarc
All funds donated go right back into the music.

I've got a couple conventions coming up, so every bit is going to help a lot. If you're going to Trotcon or Bronycon, I hope to see you there!

And now, for the real stuff.

Sometimes, things just don't get better, I guess.
I started this song about a week or so ago, but it's gone through so many phases that you could say I've been working on this file for maybe a month. I don't know anymore.
I just hate how everything has gone, and maybe it's the source of not having my car for over 4 months (all the while continuing to make payments on it and drop a couple thousand on a new engine) and being stuck at a job that just drains all my energy so I can't even work on music, but I'm just tired of even trying to do anything.
I've spent some time reflecting as of late, and it feels like all my life, I've been coerced and pressured to do things that weren't really the best thing for me. I haven't even been able to come to terms with who I am and where I am in life up until now, and I've just wanted to bash my skull in because it feels like everything's wrong and there's nothing I can do. It's too late.
I just have to be okay because that's what people do. I just have to be fine with how things are going and fix everything because that's what I'm supposed to do. When do I get to keep what I've worked for? When does everything stop bombarding me with more negativity? When do I get to be happy?
I guess all there is for me to do is wait.
That's what I'm supposed to do, right?

I'm tired, guys. I'm just tired.
I hope you all are doing much better than I am.
I don't know what's next, but expect things.
Stay awesome.