WEBVTT Kind: captions Language: en 00:00:01.740 --> 00:00:04.360 Hello, bros. 00:00:05.220 --> 00:00:07.700 It's time for an update vlog. 00:00:07.700 --> 00:00:09.200 I've been holding out on you. 00:00:09.200 --> 00:00:11.000 I've been waiting to do this 00:00:11.000 --> 00:00:17.000 Cause I thought a year review was in good time for the holidays to do 00:00:17.000 --> 00:00:19.000 ummmmm 00:00:19.000 --> 00:00:22.000 It's been quite the year. I don't know if you've noticed 00:00:22.000 --> 00:00:23.640 00:00:23.640 --> 00:00:26.400 it's probably been the most insane year of my life 00:00:27.500 --> 00:00:32.420 literally so many things just got completely switched up side down 00:00:32.700 --> 00:00:38.060 lost a lot of friends lost a lot of... a lot of things 00:00:38.420 --> 00:00:42.180 but I'm looking back on 2017 and it doesn't feel negative 00:00:42.180 --> 00:00:44.900 it doesn't feel like I'm necessarily a bad thing 00:00:46.160 --> 00:00:49.760 and I will try and explain why 00:00:49.880 --> 00:00:51.500 at around this time last year 00:00:51.500 --> 00:00:54.120 I made a video saying I was gonna delete my channel 00:00:54.760 --> 00:00:55.640 at 50 million 00:00:55.640 --> 00:00:58.600 we're at 58 million right now, by the way, thank you very much 00:00:58.600 --> 00:01:01.300 I know you're gonna think I'm joking right now 00:01:02.080 --> 00:01:04.160 but I'm gonna delete my channel 00:01:06.840 --> 00:01:07.720 I swear to you 00:01:08.260 --> 00:01:10.980 at 50 million subs, when we hit 50 million 00:01:11.960 --> 00:01:13.560 huge landmark coming up 00:01:13.800 --> 00:01:17.400 huge deal, never been done before, no one's even close 00:01:20.320 --> 00:01:21.480 I am deleting my channel 00:01:22.280 --> 00:01:23.480 so dramatic, hehehe 00:01:23.760 --> 00:01:25.540 f*cking assh*le (trying not to get demonetized) 00:01:26.500 --> 00:01:28.880 I'm gonna delete my channel at 60 million, guys 00:01:28.880 --> 00:01:31.620 I promise, it's definitely going to happen 00:01:32.060 --> 00:01:34.140 um that was sort of a joke 00:01:34.480 --> 00:01:39.040 but at the same time, I didn't feel like that was necessarily the case 00:01:39.040 --> 00:01:41.780 I really felt like I wanted to delete my channel 00:01:42.560 --> 00:01:45.460 uh, because I was so stuck 00:01:45.460 --> 00:01:48.340 in between al these business side of youtube 00:01:49.860 --> 00:01:50.820 you didn't see 00:01:51.200 --> 00:01:52.560 a fraction of it, but 00:01:52.920 --> 00:01:55.400 for me, to do youtube every single day 00:01:55.680 --> 00:01:57.920 upload daily videos, and still be 00:01:57.920 --> 00:02:01.120 going on trips for all these different events, uh 00:02:01.120 --> 00:02:02.880 going on trips for business stuff 00:02:03.060 --> 00:02:06.020 uh, having calls every single day 00:02:06.020 --> 00:02:08.480 talking about, you know, revelmode and all these things 00:02:08.560 --> 00:02:09.700 I was working on 00:02:09.700 --> 00:02:11.140 and working on Scare Pewdiepie 00:02:11.140 --> 00:02:12.540 being away for a month 00:02:12.760 --> 00:02:14.500 I was so BURNED out 00:02:14.600 --> 00:02:16.200 and I know, boohoo me, right? 00:02:16.420 --> 00:02:18.420 I put myself in that situation 00:02:18.420 --> 00:02:20.620 but I realized: "this is not.. whehehehhh.. 00:02:20.820 --> 00:02:21.940 I'm stuck here!" 00:02:22.200 --> 00:02:23.920 and I- this is not what I want 00:02:23.920 --> 00:02:25.540 I just wanna make videos! 00:02:25.740 --> 00:02:27.900 wheheh- what the hell happened? 00:02:27.900 --> 00:02:29.260 I literally went through like, 00:02:29.500 --> 00:02:31.480 an ACTUAL mental breakdown 00:02:33.560 --> 00:02:35.240 it just got too much for me 00:02:35.280 --> 00:02:39.120 and I think I have a really strong mental ehh- psyche, like 00:02:40.200 --> 00:02:43.720 I can handle more shit than most people 00:02:43.720 --> 00:02:45.540 I- I feel confident saying that 00:02:45.540 --> 00:02:47.200 but it really got to me at a point, and 00:02:47.200 --> 00:02:48.740 and I'm not tryna get brown- like 00:02:48.740 --> 00:02:49.740 euhbleuh points, like 00:02:49.760 --> 00:02:51.200 I- that's not the case 00:02:51.200 --> 00:02:52.940 so, when all this stuff happened 00:02:53.140 --> 00:02:55.780 in February, when all the stuff about me 00:02:55.960 --> 00:02:57.760 being a Nazi came out 00:02:57.960 --> 00:02:59.720 some things of it was awful 00:02:59.720 --> 00:03:02.560 the fact that season two of Scare Pewdiepie got canceled, 00:03:02.720 --> 00:03:05.000 just sucked, I don't... ehh 00:03:05.000 --> 00:03:08.020 and in retrospect, it still doesn't make any sense to me 00:03:08.020 --> 00:03:10.060 so many people worked on that show 00:03:10.060 --> 00:03:11.540 it's, it's, it's really 00:03:11.700 --> 00:03:13.380 it's a shame for everyone 00:03:13.600 --> 00:03:15.900 that involved, and I'm REALLY sorry for everyone involved 00:03:16.280 --> 00:03:17.420 uhhhh 00:03:17.800 --> 00:03:20.440 but it also got me out of all these things 00:03:20.620 --> 00:03:23.740 that I didn't even enjoy working on, at the time 00:03:23.860 --> 00:03:25.440 I was so fed up with it so.. 00:03:25.740 --> 00:03:27.840 it was sort of a blessing in disguise 00:03:27.840 --> 00:03:29.740 and, and this year in general 00:03:29.740 --> 00:03:32.880 the main thing throughout all these bad things happening 00:03:33.300 --> 00:03:36.820 I regained SO much support from you guys 00:03:36.820 --> 00:03:40.800 uhhh, and it's something that I never thought I would get back 00:03:40.800 --> 00:03:44.380 I had sorta given up on the idea that my fans were really gonna 00:03:44.380 --> 00:03:46.880 have this commu- have this sense of community again 00:03:47.040 --> 00:03:48.620 and, uh 00:03:49.020 --> 00:03:52.300 you know, for all these bad things, to trade that, 00:03:52.900 --> 00:03:55.620 I would take it, i- it's just been amazing 00:03:55.880 --> 00:03:58.040 then, the AdPocalypse happened 00:03:58.560 --> 00:04:00.460 oh boy 00:04:00.640 --> 00:04:02.800 and I vowed to go family friendly 00:04:05.680 --> 00:04:07.160 that worked out GREAT, didn't it? 00:04:07.260 --> 00:04:09.740 to be honest, the- when the AdPocalypse happened, 00:04:09.880 --> 00:04:11.900 I did get hit REALLY hard, 00:04:11.900 --> 00:04:14.380 it was a time of panic, 'cause all the sudden 00:04:14.380 --> 00:04:16.620 all of your videos are- you're not getting any income 00:04:16.880 --> 00:04:18.460 with the- all the wall street stuff happening 00:04:18.460 --> 00:04:21.420 my CPM, which is, like, my average income-thing 00:04:21.720 --> 00:04:24.940 dropped, because I was kicked out of- um 00:04:25.200 --> 00:04:26.860 youtube, uhhhhhhhh 00:04:27.000 --> 00:04:28.200 what is it called? 00:04:28.200 --> 00:04:30.500 their special ad-program or whatever 00:04:30.500 --> 00:04:31.340 but then I realized, hey 00:04:31.340 --> 00:04:34.540 I can literally just put one extra midrole in the video 00:04:34.540 --> 00:04:37.880 and it doesn't make any difference, like, I actually don't lose anything 00:04:38.140 --> 00:04:42.000 and, uh, so I started doing that, as a way to, like, 00:04:42.120 --> 00:04:45.520 you know what, FU, Wall Street, you're not gonna make me 00:04:46.000 --> 00:04:47.400 go down, you know? 00:04:47.600 --> 00:04:50.400 uh, it's not like I NEED the money, it was more like, uh 00:04:50.400 --> 00:04:53.380 I wanna show them that this is not gonna affect me in any way 00:04:53.380 --> 00:04:55.460 so in case you're wondering why there's a midrole, 00:04:55.760 --> 00:04:56.640 there you go! 00:04:57.460 --> 00:05:00.600 umm, at the end of the day, I used to have an office 00:05:00.600 --> 00:05:02.420 I used to have a bunch of people working for me, 00:05:03.220 --> 00:05:06.140 uhhhhhhhhhhh, but I also realized 00:05:06.140 --> 00:05:06.840 I didn't want that 00:05:06.840 --> 00:05:08.500 I used to have, like, a secretary, 00:05:08.540 --> 00:05:10.860 helping me get coffee and, like I- 00:05:10.860 --> 00:05:13.780 I don't really feel comfortable letting other people do stuff for me 00:05:14.160 --> 00:05:16.560 it really wasn't what I wanted at all 00:05:16.880 --> 00:05:20.220 so I just, panicked, I got super sick 00:05:20.220 --> 00:05:22.460 like, the worst sickness of my life 00:05:22.640 --> 00:05:26.560 and, I decided to- hey, I can just record from this place 00:05:26.560 --> 00:05:28.420 it's so much more convenient, 00:05:28.420 --> 00:05:31.580 I don't have to have other people in the other room when I record, 00:05:31.580 --> 00:05:34.680 uh, this is how I started making videos, in this room 00:05:34.800 --> 00:05:38.080 and, uh, that's how I wanna keep- I wanna keep it simple 00:05:38.140 --> 00:05:40.700 I would always say like "oh, uh, 00:05:40.700 --> 00:05:45.960 youtube isn't the best, because you get just me and it's not me and a producer and a writer" 00:05:45.960 --> 00:05:47.960 but how do all these people help in me, 00:05:48.640 --> 00:05:50.000 do all this stuff and it 00:05:50.200 --> 00:05:55.520 really felt like I was getting against what I was so 00:05:55.580 --> 00:05:57.120 spoken about before 00:05:57.360 --> 00:06:00.380 so I got really sick, and then Jake Paul stuff came out, 00:06:00.580 --> 00:06:03.100 and it was like the best- that was like the best thing 00:06:03.100 --> 00:06:04.820 that could- that could happen 00:06:04.820 --> 00:06:08.880 because, I fi- I had something to just make a video of right away 00:06:08.980 --> 00:06:10.300 when I was away 00:06:10.540 --> 00:06:11.900 which is always nice 00:06:12.180 --> 00:06:15.540 and this is when I decided: "I'm gonna grow a beard" 00:06:16.220 --> 00:06:17.640 Is Keemstar tryna roast my beard? 00:06:18.040 --> 00:06:21.560 I made a video called: "I'm tired of trying" 00:06:21.560 --> 00:06:23.580 where I basically talked that- I really 00:06:23.820 --> 00:06:28.300 used to be very focused on trends, I used to be very focused on, like, 00:06:28.300 --> 00:06:32.480 how well a video did, that would take up a lot of my mindspace, and it 00:06:32.480 --> 00:06:34.860 I think most youtubers think like that 00:06:34.860 --> 00:06:35.960 I realized, I don't wanna 00:06:35.960 --> 00:06:37.980 I wouldn't wanna shape my channel that way, I 00:06:37.980 --> 00:06:39.440 I wanna do what I wanna do, 00:06:39.440 --> 00:06:42.280 I wanna make the videos that I enjoy making, 00:06:42.540 --> 00:06:43.620 and, uhhh 00:06:44.840 --> 00:06:50.940 that has been my mindset for the past couple months, and it's just turned out SO much better, you know 00:06:50.940 --> 00:06:51.920 whether it's me, 00:06:52.020 --> 00:06:55.460 talking about something that I enjoy, like whiskey 00:06:55.460 --> 00:06:57.640 that, for me, has just been really fun 00:06:57.840 --> 00:06:59.780 I've been enjoying just the- 00:06:59.780 --> 00:07:01.440 sharing stuff that I like, and 00:07:02.900 --> 00:07:05.500 I think you guys have as well and it's been really fun to, 00:07:05.660 --> 00:07:08.460 and it's such a better way of making videos 00:07:08.460 --> 00:07:11.940 maybe it doesn't get as many views, but it's more fun! and 00:07:11.940 --> 00:07:15.360 I would rather watch someone talk about stuff that they like, 00:07:15.360 --> 00:07:18.820 than fucking play a game that they don't really enjoy 00:07:18.960 --> 00:07:20.740 I started doing these 00:07:21.000 --> 00:07:27.640 L-LWIAY videos where I react to your reddit stuff and that was just the best idea ever 00:07:27.640 --> 00:07:30.360 I know it's like, a meme, that it's not original content 00:07:30.500 --> 00:07:32.780 and it's- or whatever, but 00:07:32.920 --> 00:07:35.060 it really sh- came back the 00:07:35.200 --> 00:07:37.520 the sorta community on the channel 00:07:37.900 --> 00:07:40.420 uhhh, seeing your humor 00:07:40.420 --> 00:07:43.740 and my humor sorta collide into different type of memes 00:07:44.000 --> 00:07:46.180 it's just so cool and so fun 00:07:46.260 --> 00:07:47.640 and uh 00:07:47.640 --> 00:07:52.140 I love it so much, I love that we fi- we have a community on this channel 00:07:52.300 --> 00:07:53.920 rather than just 00:07:55.020 --> 00:07:58.540 me just doing random bullshit, playing random games 00:07:58.540 --> 00:08:04.140 uhh, I'm really proud of that, and I'm really proud of that we are at this point, where we are 00:08:04.340 --> 00:08:08.100 and it really- thanks to everyone for posting in these 00:08:08.240 --> 00:08:10.720 I started doing you laugh you lose-es 00:08:10.720 --> 00:08:13.660 which was also the kind of thing people didn't like in the beginning, they 00:08:13.660 --> 00:08:18.160 were like, what are you, just looking at other people's clip, what are you, Ray William Johnson? OH 00:08:18.260 --> 00:08:20.320 JESUS WHAT THE FUCK 00:08:20.320 --> 00:08:23.120 I enjoyed it, it was just like, I enjoyed making them, they were 00:08:23.120 --> 00:08:25.580 fun, I love laughing at these stupid clips! 00:08:25.580 --> 00:08:27.200 so why shouldn't I make them? 00:08:27.200 --> 00:08:31.340 s- and I'm really glad I kept doing them because I think you guys actually really like them too 00:08:31.940 --> 00:08:34.160 ohhhhhhhhh man 00:08:34.440 --> 00:08:38.500 and I started streaming, 'cause I was really into pubg and 00:08:38.720 --> 00:08:40.100 I dont think I- 00:08:40.100 --> 00:08:44.460 before, I was so pre-occupied with youtube I had literally no other intrest 00:08:44.460 --> 00:08:46.080 it was youtube, or nothing 00:08:46.260 --> 00:08:51.380 it was all that was in my head, 24/7 a day so I allowed myself to enjoy other things 00:08:51.540 --> 00:08:54.060 and actually playing games again on my spare time 00:08:54.060 --> 00:08:56.380 that's why I enjoyed streaming so much 00:08:56.460 --> 00:08:59.060 this is the day before the slip-up 00:08:59.060 --> 00:09:01.400 I hate how- it's so fucking unfair, dude 00:09:01.900 --> 00:09:03.000 shoot me 00:09:03.880 --> 00:09:05.200 shoot me 00:09:08.780 --> 00:09:10.360 where is this nibba? 00:09:10.520 --> 00:09:12.040 oh my god 00:09:13.620 --> 00:09:15.460 FUCK YOU 00:09:19.640 --> 00:09:23.940 then, the slip-up happened, and, uhhhhhhh 00:09:26.000 --> 00:09:31.320 definitely, you know, once a year, not even worth, once every ten years, not 00:09:31.460 --> 00:09:34.420 even, but like twice a year? you fcking idiot 00:09:36.480 --> 00:09:37.520 uhhhhhhhhhhhh 00:09:37.520 --> 00:09:41.940 and this time, it was sorta different, 'cause I felt personally responsible, 00:09:42.040 --> 00:09:44.520 I felt like, you know, this is my fault 00:09:45.560 --> 00:09:49.160 I shouldn't even, I shouldn't even defend this 00:09:49.480 --> 00:09:51.960 and uh, that's what I did, I'm 00:09:51.960 --> 00:09:54.900 ehh, really glad for all the support I still got 00:09:54.900 --> 00:09:59.260 even though I clearly fucked up, but I'm glad people accepted my apology 00:10:00.060 --> 00:10:03.100 uhh, and I was able to move past it 00:10:03.140 --> 00:10:05.180 I really started making videos just that just 00:10:05.200 --> 00:10:07.080 about stuff that fascinated me 00:10:07.140 --> 00:10:08.540 like chris chann 00:10:08.820 --> 00:10:11.300 uh, or just talking about memes or 00:10:12.520 --> 00:10:14.620 IT'S NOT ORIGINAL CONTENT 00:10:14.800 --> 00:10:17.780 yes, I know, but I LOVE talking about these things 00:10:17.880 --> 00:10:19.720 I LOVE sharing these things 00:10:19.800 --> 00:10:23.720 and I think it's so much more interesting to hear someone talk about something they're interested in 00:10:23.720 --> 00:10:26.140 and, uh, that's just been my approach 00:10:26.400 --> 00:10:30.500 would I ever make a fucking Star Wars review in 2016? hell no 00:10:30.500 --> 00:10:34.780 but did I really have a lot of thoughts about the movie that I wanted to share? 00:10:34.780 --> 00:10:36.300 yes, and that's why I did it 00:10:36.300 --> 00:10:38.700 and I think it's such a better approach 00:10:38.880 --> 00:10:40.880 and I'm so happy I stuck with it 00:10:40.880 --> 00:10:42.340 so much has changed this year 00:10:42.340 --> 00:10:45.100 but at the end of the year, I am so much happier 00:10:45.420 --> 00:10:50.140 I'm so glad I'm here, FINALLY internet is gonna be installed on the 22nd 00:10:50.140 --> 00:10:51.480 maybe that has happened already, 00:10:51.520 --> 00:10:54.000 even me just keeping my fcking beard, 00:10:54.000 --> 00:10:58.300 'cause it's the kinda thing where everyone in the comments will tell you "just shave, just shave" 00:10:58.300 --> 00:11:01.020 and I'm like "I like the beard, I'm gonna keep it" 00:11:01.020 --> 00:11:03.300 it's really- I know it sounds stupid but I 00:11:03.460 --> 00:11:06.580 I really think I- I'm really 00:11:06.580 --> 00:11:10.200 proud of myself for gaining a lot more confidence in myself 00:11:10.260 --> 00:11:12.440 uh, to resist what other people say 00:11:12.560 --> 00:11:17.100 I should do, or how other people tell me how to- how to do things 00:11:17.100 --> 00:11:20.560 it's so easy to listen to comments, I really think everyone does 00:11:20.620 --> 00:11:21.920 uhhhhhhhhhhhm 00:11:22.680 --> 00:11:23.660 but ehhh 00:11:25.540 --> 00:11:32.580 I think, at the end of the day, people appreciate that you are you, and not just a product of what other people want you to be 00:11:32.580 --> 00:11:35.700 uh, that sounded a lot deeper than I meant it to be 00:11:36.400 --> 00:11:42.660 I'm also just really grateful, that I can keep making videos, at this point you look at anyone else that's been number 1 on youtube, 00:11:42.660 --> 00:11:46.180 and it's practically a dead channel, and they didn't last very long 00:11:46.260 --> 00:11:49.620 so, for me, at this point, to still be relevant enough 00:11:49.620 --> 00:11:52.120 that people care what I say and what I do and- 00:11:52.120 --> 00:11:55.480 and click on my videos, that really means the world to me 00:11:55.900 --> 00:11:57.660 because I still very much enjoy videos, 00:11:57.800 --> 00:11:59.700 I get so many 'haters' 00:11:59.700 --> 00:12:01.640 saying like: oh, if I was PewDiePie, 00:12:01.640 --> 00:12:03.580 I would just quit making videos, he 00:12:03.580 --> 00:12:04.820 already made millions 00:12:04.820 --> 00:12:06.160 what an idiot, MAYBE 00:12:06.160 --> 00:12:09.220 I'm passionate about it, maybe I still enjoy it 00:12:09.480 --> 00:12:14.220 it's like.. I really think 2017 is the year where I've lost, uhhh 00:12:14.220 --> 00:12:19.440 a lot of support from youtube, but it's the year where I've regained the support from my fans (aww) 00:12:20.260 --> 00:12:23.860 and that, I will never forget! 'Cause I went through so many changes 00:12:24.460 --> 00:12:25.820 so, it felt like, uhh 00:12:26.520 --> 00:12:29.200 so many of my fans hated me, or whatever 00:12:29.200 --> 00:12:31.660 I'm just so glad that, finally, we have a community 00:12:31.940 --> 00:12:38.380 and finally- AGAIN, and finally we have, uh, I have people that I really feel like there's people that support me 00:12:39.420 --> 00:12:43.420 I really do, uh feel like that finally and that, that really means a lot 00:12:43.800 --> 00:12:47.160 so thank you! it's been- despite all the downsides, 00:12:47.160 --> 00:12:48.460 it's been an amazing year 00:12:48.460 --> 00:12:51.420 and I'm really proud and happy looking back, believe it or not 00:12:51.420 --> 00:12:53.460 uhhh, you learn from your mistakes, 00:12:53.600 --> 00:12:54.380 and, uh, 00:12:56.220 --> 00:12:57.420 that's just life! 00:12:57.700 --> 00:13:00.740 THAT'S LIFE! it's a Room reference everybody 00:13:00.940 --> 00:13:03.140 thank you to everyone for ehh 00:13:03.500 --> 00:13:05.420 hanging out with me this year 00:13:05.480 --> 00:13:07.000 can't wait for next one 00:13:07.360 --> 00:13:13.940 and as always, squad fam- should we do- should we do a brofist? 00:13:15.840 --> 00:13:17.760 I'll let it slide this time :) 00:13:17.900 --> 00:13:19.700 brofist <3