WEBVTT Kind: captions Language: en 00:00:00.040 --> 00:00:03.880 Today... today is just one of those fucking days, man. 00:00:03.880 --> 00:00:05.460 *drinks to forget* 00:00:09.660 --> 00:00:11.320 Its just... umm 00:00:11.320 --> 00:00:14.180 I'm tired. I'm really tired. 00:00:15.840 --> 00:00:17.480 WOW, what a problem. Heh 00:00:17.760 --> 00:00:19.980 I'm sure your the only one in the entire world, poodiepie 00:00:20.460 --> 00:00:22.360 No, I know, I, I, Trust me, I know 00:00:22.360 --> 00:00:25.220 And I know these rant videos have been just uh, 00:00:25.440 --> 00:00:27.440 A little bit too far in between, alright 00:00:28.140 --> 00:00:29.940 and I'm sorry. I don't mean to make this a habit, 00:00:30.120 --> 00:00:34.000 Tired is not the right word. I'm struggling, I'm fuckin struggling is what I'm trying to say. 00:00:34.280 --> 00:00:36.440 I'm having A DEEP FUCKING ISSUE 00:00:36.940 --> 00:00:41.400 Let me try to explain this in the... this so fuckin ranty this video is just going to be so ranty. 00:00:41.400 --> 00:00:43.500 *drinks more alcohol* 00:00:43.680 --> 00:00:44.180 Last year, 00:00:44.680 --> 00:00:45.360 2016 00:00:45.760 --> 00:00:46.500 October 00:00:46.860 --> 00:00:48.420 Th.. uhh worst month of my life. 00:00:49.100 --> 00:00:50.180 I'm pretty sure at least. 00:00:51.480 --> 00:00:53.480 I, I, I think I went Insane. 00:00:53.540 --> 00:00:54.820 I think I went crazy 00:00:55.760 --> 00:00:57.900 It probably didn't show on camera, 00:00:58.320 --> 00:00:58.820 umm 00:00:59.020 --> 00:00:59.880 Like it is right now. 00:00:59.880 --> 00:01:00.540 I lost my mind 00:01:00.540 --> 00:01:01.560 I went crazy 00:01:01.560 --> 00:01:02.940 'cuz I had too much stuff to do, 00:01:03.500 --> 00:01:05.500 and usually I'm pretty good at taking it 00:01:05.500 --> 00:01:06.760 but then umm... 00:01:06.760 --> 00:01:08.640 It just went overboard, 00:01:08.900 --> 00:01:11.380 and I then, I literally, I think i hit the wall, 00:01:11.380 --> 00:01:12.960 I hit the wall pretty hard. 00:01:13.120 --> 00:01:15.860 and I "oh boo hoo it's hard, it's hard for you" I get it. 00:01:15.920 --> 00:01:22.400 But this year I'm just really conscious about getting too much. Errmm. Work on me. 00:01:22.900 --> 00:01:28.780 And i'm pretty sure I - em - I'm getting close to that limit again. and I'm ahhh I'm scared that I'm going to hit the wall again. 00:01:28.880 --> 00:01:31.420 Where I'm just going to fuckin lose my mind again. 00:01:31.920 --> 00:01:35.720 And ahhhh, you know e- i- e- you work all day on a video, 00:01:36.080 --> 00:01:39.140 and the people just fucking hate it, and uhh 00:01:39.140 --> 00:01:42.720 I just can't help feeling a little bit personal invested alright. 00:01:42.960 --> 00:01:46.740 Usually i'm pretty far ahead with content so i really don't give a shit it's like: 00:01:46.900 --> 00:01:48.900 "Oh yeah that video i made that two days ago, I don't give a shit" 00:01:49.220 --> 00:01:55.540 But now it's like I'm- I'm behind so I feel so.. like I have all this build up of this video and i want to share it 00:01:55.840 --> 00:01:59.540 but all I get is like "Where's Resident Evil 7, Pewdiepie?" 00:01:59.980 --> 00:02:04.740 and I'm like: "Motherfucker, I made this for you! this video, I put all this time and effort into it, 00:02:05.100 --> 00:02:11.560 'Cuz my strategy has lately been to just make videos that ar- are as good as they can be, ignore this one 100% 00:02:12.220 --> 00:02:17.740 But uhh, now that Resident Evil comes out it's like it's fucking hard to keep up like I'm struggling like crazy 00:02:18.400 --> 00:02:23.920 And all these- eh- like apparently every Youtuber on the planet is playing Resident Evil 7 right now and it's just like: 00:02:24.720 --> 00:02:26.720 "Fuck man, how am I going to keep up?" 00:02:26.940 --> 00:02:30.220 like two years ago you could upload like 10 minute parts and you'll be fine, 00:02:30.480 --> 00:02:35.860 Now it's like, "oh you got to upload at least an hour otherwise I'm gonna go watch Toby Turner play this shit" 00:02:36.300 --> 00:02:39.740 Fuu- like it's always like I'm trying to step everything up and I'm just, 00:02:39.960 --> 00:02:42.180 (hand gestures stepping it up) 00:02:42.560 --> 00:02:48.900 For me, this is as much as I can give and I need you guys to just realize that I’m ju- I’m a person alright? 00:02:49.180 --> 00:02:52.160 I make mistakes, I can only do so much. 00:02:52.160 --> 00:02:57.980 It's a fucking weird ass video, e- e- I usually have some kinda coherent.. line of what I'm gonna say 00:02:58.060 --> 00:03:01.020 but this is just fucking ba- rambling I'm just waste... *laughs at pain* 00:03:01.260 --> 00:03:06.740 Basically, I just wanted to let you guys know that uhm.. struggling, I’m really struggling right now 00:03:07.420 --> 00:03:12.860 uhm.. I gotta work ahead, that's always something in my mind, I always got to work ahead because there's.. 00:03:12.860 --> 00:03:18.820 I have all these other obligations that I gotta do I got TV appearances that I'm locked in to do I gotta travel and shit 00:03:18.820 --> 00:03:23.880 and oh I know, "so hard for you" but no I just want to make videos, that's all I really care about it's like 00:03:23.880 --> 00:03:26.480 "Hey, Poodiepie, you wanna go for lunch later?" 00:03:26.600 --> 00:03:28.740 Aww no, thank you though I, I don't have time 00:03:28.740 --> 00:03:35.100 "Hey Poodiepie, you want to go on holiday with me, I'll pay for it." That's great but I, I gotta make videos 00:03:35.100 --> 00:03:41.100 "Hey Poodiepie, uhh can i suck your dick?" Oh yeah, no, actually you can please do... 00:03:41.100 --> 00:03:43.220 *wtf* 00:03:43.260 --> 00:03:47.840 and I know everyone's gonna be like "Oh Pewdiepie, why don't you just take a break relax" Don't get me wrong 00:03:47.840 --> 00:03:53.380 I appreciate that but at the same time if I want to go on holiday, I'll just do it. 00:03:53.400 --> 00:03:58.960 I don't want to go on holiday I just need you guys to understand that if-make a piece of shit video 00:04:04.920 --> 00:04:13.920 this is the explanation I make self-deprecating jokes on this channel now I think I started doing that and you 00:04:13.920 --> 00:04:21.340 bros and my audience are playing along with that but sometimes it gets a little much, okay 00:04:21.460 --> 00:04:26.900 sometimes I need you guys to just be kind of nice about it alright because I have feelers damn it 00:04:27.020 --> 00:04:34.460 i feel like this video is some kind of "weird celebrity freak out" like I'm fine it says I'm feeling very tired alright 00:04:34.480 --> 00:04:40.580 I’m literally rendering a video while I'm recording this one to save time like I'm so short on time 00:04:40.580 --> 00:04:45.960 the problem is I have too many things to do right now and I'm trying really fucking hard to juggle everything 00:04:45.960 --> 00:04:49.900 when I see you guys just come about your shit because video wasn't good enough even though 00:04:49.900 --> 00:04:55.820 I spent a shitload of time trying to make it as good as possible it hurts alright I feel personally invested 00:04:55.820 --> 00:05:00.260 im trying my fucking hardest it's like everyone's like oh I is even more uploading videos he doesn't even have to 00:05:00.260 --> 00:05:06.600 well I care alright I care and was like why do you can't I don't know I don't know why I give a shit 00:05:06.620 --> 00:05:11.480 I'm not gonna upload on mondays anymore but I used to do that before right now I have too much shit to do 00:05:11.480 --> 00:05:15.160 I think im gonna have to make the decision that I'm not uploading on mondays anymore 00:05:15.180 --> 00:05:20.460 I know resident evil it will probably just last like a week and a half or whatever it's not a big deal 00:05:20.460 --> 00:05:27.440 I’m already short on time and then to do these episodes it's even more time I do want to say that 00:05:27.440 --> 00:05:32.680 the support that I am getting uhh when you kind of feel like shit and you have too much to do and you 00:05:32.680 --> 00:05:39.600 stress that I really appreciate that like those when I read a comment when I really need it a it means alot 00:05:39.600 --> 00:05:43.880 and then don't don't think I'm just focusing on all the bad stuff 00:05:43.880 --> 00:05:49.100 I’m not I do want to apologize for this video for being extremely ranty 00:05:49.100 --> 00:05:54.780 I fucking hate when people make rants on youtube and here I am making one I just didn't know how else to make this one 00:05:54.780 --> 00:06:00.920 I just wanted to speak from my heart and without a script or anything like that youtube is really promoting 00:06:00.920 --> 00:06:08.300 10 minute videos it's so obvious like a lot of people are joking like his channel is dying but it's like my channel is doing 00:06:08.300 --> 00:06:14.240 better than he's ever done because I started doing like 10 minute videos because watch time is is king on 00:06:14.240 --> 00:06:19.960 youtube now so you have to make longer videos but I really feel strongly about keep making good content 00:06:19.960 --> 00:06:24.720 even though it's longer I know a lot we were like oh looking only makes 10 minute videos that we only cares 00:06:24.720 --> 00:06:31.380 about money but it's like I'm still really trying to make it a good ten minutes not like fucking titled cards for 00:06:31.380 --> 00:06:33.540 30 seconds 10 minutes you know 00:06:33.540 --> 00:06:38.620 and I don't mean to complain I’m just more speaking honestly how I feel and I hate it I hate for it to be 00:06:38.620 --> 00:06:42.720 considered complaining I don't want to be just the guy that keeps complaining or whatever 00:06:42.720 --> 00:06:45.320 but it's also like a lot of people have 00:06:45.440 --> 00:06:53.320 the approach of like "Oh poodiepie I makes so much money why does he complain?" I hate seeing that it's 00:06:53.320 --> 00:06:59.220 almost sad seeing that because they make me think so it like the majority of people value money more than 00:06:59.220 --> 00:07:05.380 anything it makes me think that people think that just because you have money all your fuckin problems are solved 00:07:05.380 --> 00:07:10.840 maybe some people don't care that much about money you know it's as long as the i can afford to live 00:07:10.840 --> 00:07:17.260 "comfortably" I don't give a shit about rest like I’m not I don't want to buy 5 Lambos I don't give a shit 00:07:17.260 --> 00:07:23.140 and it so just because people it's commonly known thanks to fucking media by the way thanks a fucking lot 00:07:23.140 --> 00:07:27.420 that I make a great living like I'm not allowed to express my feelings it's fucking annoying as shit 00:07:27.420 --> 00:07:31.760 i need to get a haircut leave a comment down below what haircut I should get 00:07:31.760 --> 00:07:37.480 top comment will get pinned and i'll pick it thank you also be sure to check out my other blogs 00:07:37.580 --> 00:07:41.920 *Everyone say robbie rotten haircut plz* 00:07:41.920 --> 00:07:42.420 Why do birds suddenly appear, ev'ry time you are near? Just like me, they long to be close to you. Why do stars fall down from the sky, ev'ry time you walk by? Just like me, they long to be close to you. On the day that you were born the angels got together. And decided to create a dream come true. So, they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold, And star-light in your eyes of blue. That is why all the girls in town follow you all around. Just like me, they long to be close to you... On the day that you were born the angels got together. And decided to create a dream come true. So, they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold, And star-light in your eyes of blue. That is why all the girls in town follow you all around. Just like me, they long to be close to you... Just like me, they long to be close to you... 00:07:42.420 --> 00:07:49.660 right here. im so tired genuinely tired can you tell, like 00:07:49.660 --> 00:07:51.660 00:07:51.660 --> 00:07:53.660