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Hey, it's me.

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Uh,

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I thought we could talk about a

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video I made a year ago.

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It was about happiness,

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it was about forced positivity.

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Remember that video?

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I don't think being happy all the time

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It's Something desirable

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at all.

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Now If you watch my older videos i might seem a lot happier i might see a lot chipper a lot more positive (yay)

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Now, if you watch my older videos I might seem a lot happier,

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I might seem a lot chipper, a lot more positive

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and that's because

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I faked it

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I faked it.

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Basically uh I talked about how a lot of youtubers

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Basically, I talked about how a lot of YouTubers

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had to keep up this sort of facade of happiness

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Had to keep up this sort of facade of happiness

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oh look how great everything is

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and "Look how great everything is"

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Just so to draw people in and be entertained by you

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just to draw people in and be entertained by you

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uh cause no one likes to hear a mopey ass

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'cause no one likes to hear a (?) ass little

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/Christian channel Pewds/

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People are generally drawn to happiness

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People are generally drawn to uh happiness

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and uh

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and I got really fed up and really tired of keeping this facade that...

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I got really fed up and really tired of keeping this facade that uh

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Yeah I'm really enjoying this game

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"Yeah, I'm really enjoying this game! I'm really having a great time playing this game!"

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I'm really having a great time playing this game

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Oh wow

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"Oh, wow! I sure love playing Minecraft every single day for years"

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I sure love playing minecraft

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Every

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Single

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Day

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For years

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*laughs*

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The video prompted a lot of responses

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The video prompted a lot of responses and a lot of discussions

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and a lot of discussions,

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and I thought it was really interesting and happy

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and I thought that it was really interesting and healthy,

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and great thing in general that we brought it up

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and a great thing in general that we brought it up.

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I remember really just playing games and

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I remember, really, just playing games, and in the back of my head, I was like:

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in the back of my head I was like

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"I'm really hating this game, I'm really not entertained by this"

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"I'm really hating this game and I'm really not entertained by this"

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but I sort of had this idea in my head that

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But I sort of had this idea in my head that,

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"Well, it's my job, and people want me to play it, so I should just do it", and...

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Well it's my "job" and people want me to play it

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so I should just do it

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and you know

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you know...

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But it wasn't fulfilling for me and it wasn't making me happy

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But it wasn't fulfulling for me and it wasn't making me happy

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and I noticed recently a lot of streamers and YouTubers talking about this,

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and I know this recently a lot of uh

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streamers AND youtubers talking about this

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sort of saying that they don't feel very happy

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Sort of saying they don't feel very happy

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or as happy as they used to be, they don't feel fulfilled

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or as happy as they used to be.

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They don't feel fulfilled.

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It's a damn shame

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It's a damn shame.

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and I see a lot of people in the comments

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And I see a lot of people in the comments sort of being like:

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Sort of being like

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"Well, it's your job. You should just suck it up. It's not that hard."

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"Well it's your job, you should just suck it up

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it's not that hard, YouTube is not a job"

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"YouTube is not a job."

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*laughs*

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Which is true, by the way, it's not a job. *laughs again*

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Which is true by the way, it's not a job

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Well I always feel bad when I see this cause I can relate to the

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But I always feel bad when I see this,

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because I can relate to the entertainer,

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the entertainer, I can understand the perspective

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I can understand their perspective.

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and so I thought I would make a video just to sort of

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So I thought I could make a video just sort of explaining that perspective,

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explaining that perspective

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Cause I think it's important for everyone

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because I think it's important for everyone.

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The problem with being a YouTuber or an online entertainer

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The problem with being a YouTuber or an online entertainer

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it's that you constantly have to outdo yourself.

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is that you constantly have to outdo yourself

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to keep people interested in what you are doing

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To keep people interested in what you are doing,

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you have to constantly keep pushing boundaries

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you have to constantly keep pushing boundaries.

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and you are essentially competing more or less

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And you're essentially competing, more or less,

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with other entertainers and other youtubers

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with other entertainers and other YouTubers

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for the audience to give you the time that you want

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for the audience to give you the time that you want.

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This is not just to keep up your YouTube channel or whatever

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This is not just to keep up your YouTube channel or whatever,

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it's also to keep up your livelihood

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it's also to keep up your livelihood.

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Imagine your job or whatever you do being

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Imagine your job or whatever you do being a competition,

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a competition

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it's not a healthy thing.

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uh It's not a healthy thing

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and I think a lot of people

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And I think a lot of people

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uh

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get swept up in that

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get swept up in that,

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like they have to keep pushing themselves

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that they have to keep pushing themselves.

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And I think it's a good reflection of what happened with Logan Paul,

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and I think

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it's a big reflection of what happened with Logan Paul

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I know I keep bringing it up and that's not my point here,

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I know I keep bringing it up

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and that's not my point here

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I don't think Logan necessarily is a bad person

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I don't think that Logan is necessarily a bad person,

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I just think he really got caught up in that idea

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I just think that he really got caught up in that idea,

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that he has to keep pushing himself  to

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that he has to keep pushing himself to get those numbers.

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get those numbers

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and if you make videos every single day

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If you make videos every single day, it's really tough to make people keep being interested

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it's really tough to make people keep being interested

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and keep coming back

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and keep coming back.

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uh

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So, I can sort of understand it, and I can sort of relate to it, in a way.

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So I can sort of understand it and I can sort of relate to it, in a way

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for me personally

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For me, personally, I was really miserable before YouTube.

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I was really miserable before YouTube

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YouTube has only done so many amazing things to me, and I don't want to seem that I'm complaining,

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YouTube has only really just done so many amazing things to me

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and I don't want it to seem like I'm complaining

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I'm..I

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I couldn't be happier, but, I think I still ---

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I couldn't be happier

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even though I talked about this a lot --

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I think a lot of people still have that illusion in their head that

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money and fame are going to bring them some sort of happiness.

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And I think a lot of YouTubers and lot of entertainers,

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when they get this, get to the point where, actually...

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"I have everything I wanted, or thought wanted, but I don't feel happy and I don't feel fulfilled.

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And that makes me even more unhappy and less fulfilled."

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And it can be a very negative thing,

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even though it may be hard to understand as an audience,

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as a silent viewer, or whatever.

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A few years ago, all I used to do was YouTube.

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It was 7 days a week, now I do 6 days a week.

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I would make videos. I would wake up, go to my room, make videos and that was it.

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I didn't have any hobbies, I didn't have any other interests, I wouldn't hang out with friends.

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An extremely unhealthy thing to do.

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And I would do whatever videos my fans wanted me to do,

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the fans that I had gotten,

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because I had this very serious approach to YouTube.

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You know, "It's my job, I have to keep doing this.

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I'm so lucky to be in this position, I have to respect it."

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"My personal well-being or health, that's number two."

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But it got to a point, for me, where I just felt like enough.

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"This is not making me happy, I don't want to keep doing this."

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"I'm either gonna quit it or I'm just gonna say:

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'Alright, I'm going to do it my way and if I lose a couple of fans in the process, then I can afford that'."

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'I'm in a position where I can afford doing that.'

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And I was really ready for my channel to just come down crashing and that would be it,

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but at least I would be fulfilled. At least, I would be happier

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I was met with a lot of criticism, a lot of angry fans that said:

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"You're not really playing Amnesia, you really changed."

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or "You're not really playing this game anymore, you really changed".

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Eventually, it took some time, but eventually it broke through,

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when, all of a sudden, I had people loving what I was doing because there was actual passion behind it.

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There was actual things that I enjoyed, that I could share.

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I got hobbies that I really enjoyed and could share those as well.

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The whisky (?) videos,

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this is something I enjoy.

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I started exercising, meeting friends and all these things that I didn't used to do,

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and it made such a huge difference for me.

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And it might seem obvious, but when you're so swept up in YouTube, it really isn't.

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And it also had the opposite effect that I thought my channel would go down,

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but it did really well either way.

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My advice to a lot of YouTubers and entertainers, do what makes you happy.

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If you lose some fans in the process, I think in the end it will be worth it.

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And I think a lot of us need to stop taking their own personal health

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after whatever it is they're doing.

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I'm really in the best place I've ever been

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and I'm just having a blast with YouTube and everything I'm doing right now,

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and I'm so happy I made that choice.

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And that's sort of why I want to share this and I also want to give some insight for you guys to understand:

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Yes, YouTube is really a job.

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But it can also be extremely tough and extremely weighing you down.

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It's the easiest and toughest job that I've done.

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It's not like-- I don't want people to pat me on the back,

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being like "Yeah, it is really tough. You're doing a great job".

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That's not it at all.

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But you don't deserve to be slapped in the face for it, either.

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Be happy, be nice to each other and have a good smile, everybody.

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For every once in a while, make sure to smile

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and also make sure to leave a like in this video, if you found it helpful at all.

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Clap it up, everybody.

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I need an outro, if anyone could help me with that,

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Brofist?

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There you go. There you go.

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Are you happy now?

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Alright, I did it.

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I did the pandering.
 
(want a mocking subtitle?
use ZULU subtitle)

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HA HA HA HA HA.