Hey, it's me.
Uh,
I thought we could talk about a
video I made a year ago.
It was about happiness,
it was about forced positivity.
Remember that video?
I don't think being happy all the time
It's Something desirable
at all.
Now If you watch my older videos i might seem a lot happier i might see a lot chipper a lot more positive (yay)
Now, if you watch my older videos I might seem a lot happier,
I might seem a lot chipper, a lot more positive
and that's because
I faked it
I faked it.
Basically uh I talked about how a lot of youtubers
Basically, I talked about how a lot of YouTubers
had to keep up this sort of facade of happiness
Had to keep up this sort of facade of happiness
oh look how great everything is
and "Look how great everything is"
Just so to draw people in and be entertained by you
just to draw people in and be entertained by you
uh cause no one likes to hear a mopey ass
'cause no one likes to hear a (?) ass little
/Christian channel Pewds/
People are generally drawn to happiness
People are generally drawn to uh happiness
and uh
and I got really fed up and really tired of keeping this facade that...
I got really fed up and really tired of keeping this facade that uh
Yeah I'm really enjoying this game
"Yeah, I'm really enjoying this game! I'm really having a great time playing this game!"
I'm really having a great time playing this game
Oh wow
"Oh, wow! I sure love playing Minecraft every single day for years"
I sure love playing minecraft
Every
Single
Day
For years
*laughs*
The video prompted a lot of responses
The video prompted a lot of responses and a lot of discussions
and a lot of discussions,
and I thought it was really interesting and happy
and I thought that it was really interesting and healthy,
and great thing in general that we brought it up
and a great thing in general that we brought it up.
I remember really just playing games and
I remember, really, just playing games, and in the back of my head, I was like:
in the back of my head I was like
"I'm really hating this game, I'm really not entertained by this"
"I'm really hating this game and I'm really not entertained by this"
but I sort of had this idea in my head that
But I sort of had this idea in my head that,
"Well, it's my job, and people want me to play it, so I should just do it", and...
Well it's my "job" and people want me to play it
so I should just do it
and you know
you know...
But it wasn't fulfilling for me and it wasn't making me happy
But it wasn't fulfulling for me and it wasn't making me happy
and I noticed recently a lot of streamers and YouTubers talking about this,
and I know this recently a lot of uh
streamers AND youtubers talking about this
sort of saying that they don't feel very happy
Sort of saying they don't feel very happy
or as happy as they used to be, they don't feel fulfilled
or as happy as they used to be.
They don't feel fulfilled.
It's a damn shame
It's a damn shame.
and I see a lot of people in the comments
And I see a lot of people in the comments sort of being like:
Sort of being like
"Well, it's your job. You should just suck it up. It's not that hard."
"Well it's your job, you should just suck it up
it's not that hard, YouTube is not a job"
"YouTube is not a job."
*laughs*
Which is true, by the way, it's not a job. *laughs again*
Which is true by the way, it's not a job
Well I always feel bad when I see this cause I can relate to the
But I always feel bad when I see this,
because I can relate to the entertainer,
the entertainer, I can understand the perspective
I can understand their perspective.
and so I thought I would make a video just to sort of
So I thought I could make a video just sort of explaining that perspective,
explaining that perspective
Cause I think it's important for everyone
because I think it's important for everyone.
The problem with being a YouTuber or an online entertainer
it's that you constantly have to outdo yourself.
is that you constantly have to outdo yourself
to keep people interested in what you are doing
To keep people interested in what you are doing,
you have to constantly keep pushing boundaries
you have to constantly keep pushing boundaries.
and you are essentially competing more or less
And you're essentially competing, more or less,
with other entertainers and other youtubers
with other entertainers and other YouTubers
for the audience to give you the time that you want
for the audience to give you the time that you want.
This is not just to keep up your YouTube channel or whatever
This is not just to keep up your YouTube channel or whatever,
it's also to keep up your livelihood
it's also to keep up your livelihood.
Imagine your job or whatever you do being
Imagine your job or whatever you do being a competition,
a competition
it's not a healthy thing.
uh It's not a healthy thing
and I think a lot of people
And I think a lot of people
uh
get swept up in that
get swept up in that,
like they have to keep pushing themselves
that they have to keep pushing themselves.
And I think it's a good reflection of what happened with Logan Paul,
and I think
it's a big reflection of what happened with Logan Paul
I know I keep bringing it up and that's not my point here,
I know I keep bringing it up
and that's not my point here
I don't think Logan necessarily is a bad person
I don't think that Logan is necessarily a bad person,
I just think he really got caught up in that idea
I just think that he really got caught up in that idea,
that he has to keep pushing himself to
that he has to keep pushing himself to get those numbers.
get those numbers
and if you make videos every single day
If you make videos every single day, it's really tough to make people keep being interested
it's really tough to make people keep being interested
and keep coming back
and keep coming back.
uh
So, I can sort of understand it, and I can sort of relate to it, in a way.
So I can sort of understand it and I can sort of relate to it, in a way
for me personally
For me, personally, I was really miserable before YouTube.
I was really miserable before YouTube
YouTube has only done so many amazing things to me, and I don't want to seem that I'm complaining,
YouTube has only really just done so many amazing things to me
and I don't want it to seem like I'm complaining
I'm..I
I couldn't be happier, but, I think I still ---
I couldn't be happier
even though I talked about this a lot --
I think a lot of people still have that illusion in their head that
money and fame are going to bring them some sort of happiness.
And I think a lot of YouTubers and lot of entertainers,
when they get this, get to the point where, actually...
"I have everything I wanted, or thought wanted, but I don't feel happy and I don't feel fulfilled.
And that makes me even more unhappy and less fulfilled."
And it can be a very negative thing,
even though it may be hard to understand as an audience,
as a silent viewer, or whatever.
A few years ago, all I used to do was YouTube.
It was 7 days a week, now I do 6 days a week.
I would make videos. I would wake up, go to my room, make videos and that was it.
I didn't have any hobbies, I didn't have any other interests, I wouldn't hang out with friends.
An extremely unhealthy thing to do.
And I would do whatever videos my fans wanted me to do,
the fans that I had gotten,
because I had this very serious approach to YouTube.
You know, "It's my job, I have to keep doing this.
I'm so lucky to be in this position, I have to respect it."
"My personal well-being or health, that's number two."
But it got to a point, for me, where I just felt like enough.
"This is not making me happy, I don't want to keep doing this."
"I'm either gonna quit it or I'm just gonna say:
'Alright, I'm going to do it my way and if I lose a couple of fans in the process, then I can afford that'."
'I'm in a position where I can afford doing that.'
And I was really ready for my channel to just come down crashing and that would be it,
but at least I would be fulfilled. At least, I would be happier
I was met with a lot of criticism, a lot of angry fans that said:
"You're not really playing Amnesia, you really changed."
or "You're not really playing this game anymore, you really changed".
Eventually, it took some time, but eventually it broke through,
when, all of a sudden, I had people loving what I was doing because there was actual passion behind it.
There was actual things that I enjoyed, that I could share.
I got hobbies that I really enjoyed and could share those as well.
The whisky (?) videos,
this is something I enjoy.
I started exercising, meeting friends and all these things that I didn't used to do,
and it made such a huge difference for me.
And it might seem obvious, but when you're so swept up in YouTube, it really isn't.
And it also had the opposite effect that I thought my channel would go down,
but it did really well either way.
My advice to a lot of YouTubers and entertainers, do what makes you happy.
If you lose some fans in the process, I think in the end it will be worth it.
And I think a lot of us need to stop taking their own personal health
after whatever it is they're doing.
I'm really in the best place I've ever been
and I'm just having a blast with YouTube and everything I'm doing right now,
and I'm so happy I made that choice.
And that's sort of why I want to share this and I also want to give some insight for you guys to understand:
Yes, YouTube is really a job.
But it can also be extremely tough and extremely weighing you down.
It's the easiest and toughest job that I've done.
It's not like-- I don't want people to pat me on the back,
being like "Yeah, it is really tough. You're doing a great job".
That's not it at all.
But you don't deserve to be slapped in the face for it, either.
Be happy, be nice to each other and have a good smile, everybody.
For every once in a while, make sure to smile
and also make sure to leave a like in this video, if you found it helpful at all.
Clap it up, everybody.
I need an outro, if anyone could help me with that,
Brofist?
There you go. There you go.
Are you happy now?
Alright, I did it.
I did the pandering. (want a mocking subtitle? use ZULU subtitle)
HA HA HA HA HA.