WEBVTT Kind: captions Language: en 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:05.600 Hey, it's me. Uh, I thought we're gonna talk about a video I made a year ago... 00:00:05.600 --> 00:00:09.980 It was about happiness. It was about forced positivity... 00:00:10.500 --> 00:00:14.180 Remember that video? I don't think being happy all the time is something. 00:00:14.320 --> 00:00:18.200 desirable, at all. Now if you watch my older videos, I might seem a lot happier... 00:00:18.220 --> 00:00:21.900 I might see a lot chiper a lot more positive and that's because...(susense poods) 00:00:22.480 --> 00:00:23.320 I faked it. 00:00:23.420 --> 00:00:26.760 Basically I talked about how a lot of youtubers, 00:00:27.780 --> 00:00:30.800 had to keep up this sort of facade of happiness 00:00:30.809 --> 00:00:35.880 and oh look how great everything is, to sort of draw people in and be entertained by you. 00:00:36.180 --> 00:00:38.180 Cuz no one likes to hear a mopey ass. 00:00:38.190 --> 00:00:41.020 little (mouthing a word) 00:00:41.620 --> 00:00:44.200 People... people are generally drawn to, eh, 00:00:44.500 --> 00:00:49.800 happiness, and, uh, I got really fed up and really tired of keeping this facade that 00:00:49.880 --> 00:00:50.380 uh 00:00:50.380 --> 00:00:54.920 Yeah, I'm really enjoying this game. I'm really having a great time playing this game 00:00:54.920 --> 00:01:00.800 Oh wow, I sure love playing Minecraft every single day for years. 00:01:00.840 --> 00:01:01.680 (Laughs in Thot) 00:01:01.720 --> 00:01:05.300 The video prompted a lot of responses and a lot of discussion 00:01:05.340 --> 00:01:11.130 And I thought it was really interesting and healthy and great thing in general that we brought it up. 00:01:11.130 --> 00:01:16.680 I remember really just playing games and in the back of my head, I was like: "I'm really hating this game. 00:01:16.680 --> 00:01:21.540 I'm really not entertained by this", but I sort of had this idea in my head that 00:01:22.300 --> 00:01:28.540 Well, it's my job and people want me to play it so I should just do it and 00:01:28.680 --> 00:01:36.080 you know... But it wasn't fulfilling for me, and it wasn't making me happy, and I noticed recently a lot of 00:01:36.080 --> 00:01:36.580 uh 00:01:36.740 --> 00:01:39.840 streamers AND YouTubers talking about this... 00:01:39.840 --> 00:01:40.340 eh 00:01:40.420 --> 00:01:47.549 sorta saying that they don't feel very happy, or as happy as they used to be; they, they don't feel fulfilled... 00:01:47.920 --> 00:01:49.290 It's a damn shame. 00:01:49.290 --> 00:01:52.600 And I see a lot of people in the comments, 00:01:52.680 --> 00:01:59.420 sort of being like: "well, it's your job. You should just suck it up. It's not that hard. YouTube is not a job." 00:02:00.040 --> 00:02:00.740 Ehehe! 00:02:01.060 --> 00:02:02.340 Which is true by the way... 00:02:02.340 --> 00:02:03.119 It's not a job. 00:02:03.119 --> 00:02:09.239 But I always feel bad when I see this because I can relate to the entertainer. I can can understand their perspective, 00:02:09.520 --> 00:02:12.899 and so I thought I would make a video just sort of 00:02:13.480 --> 00:02:19.700 Explaining that perspective cuz I think I think it's important for-for everyone the-the problem with being a YouTuber 00:02:19.700 --> 00:02:20.200 or-or... 00:02:20.260 --> 00:02:25.080 ...or an online entertainer is that you constantly have to outdo yourself. 00:02:25.080 --> 00:02:27.540 To keep people interested in what you are doing... 00:02:27.880 --> 00:02:31.760 You have to constantly keep pushing boundaries, and you are essentially.... 00:02:32.020 --> 00:02:38.300 co-competing more or less with other entertainers and other YouTubers for-for-for the audience to give... 00:02:38.650 --> 00:02:40.392 ...you the time that you want. 00:02:40.392 --> 00:02:46.140 This is not just to keep up your YouTube channel or whatever. It's also to keep up your livelihood. 00:02:46.720 --> 00:02:49.470 I-imagine your job or whatever you do being... 00:02:50.020 --> 00:02:51.080 a competition 00:02:51.580 --> 00:02:54.840 It's-it's not a healthy thing and I think a lot of people 00:02:55.140 --> 00:02:55.640 ass 00:02:55.840 --> 00:02:58.259 Get swept up in that but they have to keep 00:02:58.900 --> 00:03:04.110 Pushing themselves, and I think it's it's a good reflection of what happened with Logan Paul 00:03:04.110 --> 00:03:07.163 I know I keep bringing it up and that's not my point here. 00:03:07.163 --> 00:03:10.180 I don't think Logan necessarily is a bad person. 00:03:10.180 --> 00:03:16.740 I just think he really got caught up in that idea that he has to keep pushing himself to, 00:03:16.800 --> 00:03:20.480 get those numbers and if you make videos every single day 00:03:20.680 --> 00:03:25.360 It's really tough to keep... make people keep being interested and keep coming back. 00:03:26.280 --> 00:03:26.780 uhhh 00:03:26.780 --> 00:03:32.180 So I can sort of understand it and I can sort of relate to it in a way 00:03:32.200 --> 00:03:39.780 For me personally, I was really miserable before YouTube. YouTube is only really just done so many amazing thing to me 00:03:39.780 --> 00:03:42.030 And I-I don't want to seem like I'm complaining 00:03:42.030 --> 00:03:47.309 I'm-I'm-I couldn't be happier, but I think I still even though I talked about this a lot 00:03:47.310 --> 00:03:50.010 I think a lot of people have this illusion in their head that 00:03:50.410 --> 00:03:54.660 Money and fame is gonna bring them some sort of happiness. 00:03:54.660 --> 00:03:58.000 And I think a lot of YouTubers and a lot of entertainers when they get this 00:03:58.240 --> 00:04:00.260 get to the point where ackchyually 00:04:01.239 --> 00:04:04.768 I have everything I want or thought I wanted, but I don't feel happy 00:04:04.768 --> 00:04:10.040 and I don't feel fulfilled and that just makes them even more unhappy and less fulfilled and 00:04:10.200 --> 00:04:10.700 uh 00:04:10.960 --> 00:04:17.700 It's a very... it can be a very negative thing. Even though it's maybe might be ha-hard to understand as an audience as a 00:04:17.780 --> 00:04:18.280 as a... 00:04:18.800 --> 00:04:20.340 As a silent viewer or whatever. 00:04:20.340 --> 00:04:24.680 A few years ago, all I used to do was YouTube. 00:04:24.680 --> 00:04:26.420 It was seven days a week... 00:04:26.740 --> 00:04:27.940 (now I do six days a week) 00:04:28.000 --> 00:04:34.700 ... I would make videos. I would go... wake up, go to my room, make videos and that was it. I didn't have any hobbies, 00:04:34.700 --> 00:04:37.911 I didn't have any other interests. I wouldn't hang out with friends 00:04:37.920 --> 00:04:40.120 and looking back that was an extremely... 00:04:40.400 --> 00:04:41.900 Unhealthy thing to do. 00:04:42.200 --> 00:04:44.240 And I would do whatever videos 00:04:44.540 --> 00:04:50.080 My fans wanted me to do; the fans that I have gotten because I had this very serious approach to YouTube 00:04:50.110 --> 00:04:54.100 You know it's my job. I have to keep doing this. I am so lucky to be in this position 00:04:54.100 --> 00:04:56.320 I have to respect it. 00:04:56.320 --> 00:04:56.820 My 00:04:57.100 --> 00:04:59.100 personal well-being or health 00:04:59.560 --> 00:05:04.540 That's number two, but it got to a point for me where I just felt like 00:05:04.600 --> 00:05:07.060 Enough, this is not making me happy 00:05:07.190 --> 00:05:12.910 I don't want to keep doing this. I'm either gonna quit it or I'm just gonna say all right well 00:05:12.910 --> 00:05:14.080 I'm gonna do it my way 00:05:14.080 --> 00:05:16.539 and if I lose a couple fans in the 00:05:16.600 --> 00:05:21.100 process then I can afford that. I'm in a position where I can afford doing that 00:05:21.480 --> 00:05:23.320 and I was really ready for my channel to 00:05:23.320 --> 00:05:29.619 Just come down crashing, an-and that would be it, but at least then I would be fulfilled, at least I would be happier 00:05:29.620 --> 00:05:35.859 I w- I was met with a lotta-a lot of criticism a lot of a lot of angry fans, that said "oh you are not playing amnesia... 00:05:35.900 --> 00:05:39.700 You've really changed, or you're not playing this game anymore. You really changed" but... 00:05:40.220 --> 00:05:41.330 eventually I... 00:05:41.330 --> 00:05:44.919 It took some time, but eventually it broke through and all the sudden 00:05:44.919 --> 00:05:47.019 I had people loving what I was doing because 00:05:47.510 --> 00:05:50.109 There was actual passion behind it, there was actual 00:05:50.390 --> 00:05:52.749 things that I enjoyed, that I could share, I... 00:05:52.880 --> 00:05:59.400 I got hobbies that I really enjoyed and I could share those as well, like whiskey videos something. I enjoy and 00:05:59.540 --> 00:06:00.740 I started exercising 00:06:01.160 --> 00:06:04.360 meeting friends and all these things that I used to do and it just 00:06:04.580 --> 00:06:08.319 It made such a huge difference for me, and it might just seem obvious 00:06:08.320 --> 00:06:10.270 But when you're so swept up into YouTube 00:06:10.270 --> 00:06:11.800 It really isn't 00:06:11.800 --> 00:06:15.120 and it also had the opposite effect that I thought my channel will go down 00:06:15.120 --> 00:06:17.780 But it it did really well eithe-either way. 00:06:18.100 --> 00:06:20.240 My advice to a lot of youtubers and entertainers is 00:06:20.440 --> 00:06:21.660 do what makes YOU happy 00:06:21.969 --> 00:06:27.058 If you lose some fans in the process - I think in the in the end it will be worth it 00:06:27.059 --> 00:06:29.819 And I think a lot of us need to stop taking 00:06:30.729 --> 00:06:32.729 their own personal health 00:06:33.099 --> 00:06:34.239 eh... after.. 00:06:34.240 --> 00:06:36.120 Whatever it is they're doing. 00:06:36.540 --> 00:06:39.120 I am really in the the... the best place I ever been 00:06:39.320 --> 00:06:39.999 and uh... 00:06:39.999 --> 00:06:43.708 I'm just having a blast with YouTube and everything I'm doing right now 00:06:43.709 --> 00:06:45.749 And I'm so happy I made that choice 00:06:46.149 --> 00:06:51.928 And that's sort of why I wanted to share this and I also wanted to give some insight for you guys to understand 00:06:52.059 --> 00:06:58.949 Yes, YouTube isn't really a job, but it's also if it can also be extremely tough, and it extremely weighing you down 00:06:59.229 --> 00:07:01.859 It's the easiest and the toughest job I ever done 00:07:01.899 --> 00:07:05.852 It's not like I don't want people to pat me on the back being like 00:07:05.852 --> 00:07:07.409 "yeah, it is a really tough..." 00:07:07.409 --> 00:07:08.619 "... you're doing a great job...." 00:07:08.619 --> 00:07:10.079 That's not it at all 00:07:10.079 --> 00:07:12.569 But I you don't deserve to be slapped in the face for it either 00:07:12.699 --> 00:07:18.449 Be happy be nice to each other and have a good smile everybody for every once in a while make sure 00:07:18.789 --> 00:07:25.768 To smile and ALSO make sure to leave a like on this video if you found it helpful at all 00:07:25.980 --> 00:07:30.900 Clap it up everybody. I need an outro if anyone can help me with that... a brofist? 00:07:31.720 --> 00:07:32.280 ahhh... 00:07:33.220 --> 00:07:34.100 (sniffle snuffle the fist) 00:07:35.360 --> 00:07:35.860 mm- 00:07:36.000 --> 00:07:36.500 There- there you go... there you go (FINALLY) 00:07:36.500 --> 00:07:37.840 00:07:38.060 --> 00:07:39.200 Are you happy now? (YES) 00:07:39.260 --> 00:07:39.980 'aight... 00:07:40.200 --> 00:07:42.240 I did it...I did the-... I did the pandering 00:07:42.820 --> 00:07:44.240 HAHAHAHAHA!