WEBVTT Kind: captions Language: en 00:00:00.280 --> 00:00:02.460 AY YO WASSSS FUCKING GOOD! 00:00:02.920 --> 00:00:05.220 Titty Crusher 1985 here 00:00:05.580 --> 00:00:08.300 Back at it again with another live update, 00:00:08.680 --> 00:00:10.760 Thank you for tuning in today; 00:00:11.000 --> 00:00:12.300 Let's get started. 00:00:12.820 --> 00:00:16.300 First of all, don't take this video the wrong way. 00:00:16.300 --> 00:00:21.420 I know this is the kind of video where I'm trying to explain my perspective of some things... 00:00:21.420 --> 00:00:22.500 ...and... 00:00:25.080 --> 00:00:32.300 everyone just understands what I'm saying the wrong way and it just backfires and it's like why do I even bother trying to make an update video 00:00:32.300 --> 00:00:33.980 by being transparent with you guys. 00:00:34.520 --> 00:00:35.020 Anyway. 00:00:35.380 --> 00:00:36.660 Are we good to go? 00:00:36.660 --> 00:00:37.240 Okay. 00:00:37.240 --> 00:00:37.740 Cool. 00:00:37.740 --> 00:00:39.980 I was uh, sick about a week ago 00:00:40.560 --> 00:00:41.780 Which I am sure you know 00:00:42.300 --> 00:00:49.060 from all the constant mobbing, and uh... self pity that you've seen on Twitter and here on Youtube. 00:00:49.100 --> 00:00:50.200 *giggle* 00:00:50.960 --> 00:00:56.160 I'm a very routine driven person, I have like a strict way I do videos every day. 00:00:56.740 --> 00:01:06.860 I wake up, I exercise, I go to the office, I do emails, prep the video, reshoot the video, and then meetings and then I'm home. Uhh.. 00:01:07.600 --> 00:01:12.200 Now I don't have an office anymore, and now I'm taken out of my routine, I'm just like 00:01:12.200 --> 00:01:15.740 Well fuck it, I don't wanna do any of that shit anymore.. *giggles* 00:01:15.940 --> 00:01:26.560 I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm tired of trying so hard... I think I'm in try hard mode with YouTube for...since I started. 00:01:27.460 --> 00:01:35.800 I'm a very addicted personality, and I think for the past 6 or 7 years I've been addicted to YouTube 100% 00:01:35.900 --> 00:01:42.560 But now that I was taken out of it for 7 days, which has never happened before because even if I'm sick, I would still record videos. 00:01:42.940 --> 00:01:47.680 Which I guess is my point, it's like I don't really wanna do that anymore. 00:01:47.680 --> 00:01:53.120 If I'm sick, I'm just gonna be sick. *giggles* I'm not gonna force myself to upload. 00:01:53.120 --> 00:01:59.260 And this is not a moping video as like, 'oh, YouTube is so hard' or 'I want sympathy' or some shit like that. 00:01:59.260 --> 00:02:02.940 It's more like, 'I wanna be honest. I'm tired of trying so fucking hard' 00:02:02.940 --> 00:02:08.360 I had problems with my internet a few days ago, and I didn't know what to do and I couldn't upload properly, 00:02:08.680 --> 00:02:17.180 2 years ago, I would have literally taken my laptop, ran outside at like 4AM trying to steal neighbors' WiFi, i did that for 2 weeks. 00:02:17.420 --> 00:02:22.440 It was a fucking nightmare, but I was like: "I NEED TO UPLOAD VIDEOS OTHERWISE THE WORLD WILL END" 00:02:22.760 --> 00:02:24.500 I'm tired of doing that... *giggle* 00:02:24.760 --> 00:02:25.860 Don't ge- But here's the point. 00:02:25.940 --> 00:02:31.540 Don't get me wrong, I'm not tired of making videos, I'm just tired of trying so fucking hard. 00:02:32.060 --> 00:02:34.940 I wanna have a more loose approach to it. 00:02:35.320 --> 00:02:42.060 And uh, so if you notice a change in the channel for the past couple days, my approach to YouTube has just been 00:02:42.060 --> 00:02:43.540 THIS IS WHAT I WANNA MAKE TODAY 00:02:44.300 --> 00:02:48.860 Like the... the PlayerUnkown video that I did, which a lot of you liked which I think is pretty cool, but 00:02:48.860 --> 00:02:51.180 Can that be an entertaining video? 00:02:51.180 --> 00:02:52.140 Probably not. 00:02:52.140 --> 00:02:56.920 But I really felt like playing the game, so I was like 'I'm just gonna record myself playing it.' 00:02:57.640 --> 00:02:59.240 and uhh, see what happens. 00:02:59.720 --> 00:03:06.720 Now it took me 7 hours to get that gameplay, so I guess I'm still trying fucking hard. I guess I just... disproved everything I just said- 00:03:07.200 --> 00:03:11.280 God dammit fuck I can't- can't make a simple update video. 00:03:11.500 --> 00:03:19.300 I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't really care about the result as much anymore, I don't care about getting more subscribers or views 00:03:19.940 --> 00:03:21.560 Actually I do, just kidding but 00:03:21.720 --> 00:03:22.440 not as much. 00:03:23.220 --> 00:03:28.560 I still really enjoy reading all the comments every single day, and that's really what gives me a kick to make videos. 00:03:28.740 --> 00:03:33.940 And I'm just focused more now on making videos that I feel like making than ever. 00:03:34.100 --> 00:03:38.500 I just wanted to be honest and transparent about how I'm feeling about the process, 00:03:39.140 --> 00:03:45.680 and I don't want you to take it the wrong way like I'm tired of all of it, and all that shit because that's not- that's not true. 00:03:45.680 --> 00:03:53.240 From what I noticed, the comments have been really great, to be honest, much better than it used to be and not because you guys sympathized me or some shit 00:03:53.520 --> 00:03:57.900 I think you generally enjoyed the content, I don't fucking know! It's so hard to tell! 00:03:58.220 --> 00:04:08.620 But personally I find myself to be a lot happier these past days, I'm so less stressed, I'm so less fus -- 00:04:08.760 --> 00:04:13.700 It's easy to get ticked out by YouTube and uh, I find myself to be a lot less of that lately 00:04:13.720 --> 00:04:18.180 I really, really enjoy being back here at my old old office. 00:04:18.320 --> 00:04:23.640 It feels much more personal to be here again. 00:04:24.300 --> 00:04:26.860 It really just feels like me alone again. 00:04:26.940 --> 00:04:28.140 Doing my own thing, 00:04:28.140 --> 00:04:29.300 and I think that's pretty cool! 00:04:29.580 --> 00:04:30.780 Last but not least, 00:04:30.780 --> 00:04:32.840 I wanna announce a green screen competition! 00:04:33.360 --> 00:04:40.680 We've done them before, link in the description, download that video and do whatever you want with it. 00:04:41.080 --> 00:04:48.040 Edit it in a funny way, in a funny YouTube video, I will review the best ones, you guys can help vote for the best submissions as well 00:04:48.140 --> 00:04:49.680 The last one was fucking hilarious. 00:04:49.680 --> 00:04:52.020 I love seeing how creative you guys are, 00:04:52.220 --> 00:04:58.700 and it's something I see a lot more lately well. I really feel a lot more proud of my audience these days. 00:04:58.700 --> 00:05:04.340 Just seeing how funny you guys are on Twitter and like how creative you are with these events, I think it's really cool. 00:05:04.340 --> 00:05:12.620 People are definitely misinterpret this video, but uh... I hope you understand anyway, maybe where I'm coming from. 00:05:12.620 --> 00:05:17.320 I've been doing YouTube for 7 years, and I guess, I'm just really tired of being in try hard mode. 00:05:17.480 --> 00:05:21.580 And my love for making videos and all that shit- it's still there. 00:05:22.220 --> 00:05:25.740 I still don't wanna quit, I don't wanna stop anything, 00:05:25.880 --> 00:05:26.940 I promise. 00:05:27.180 --> 00:05:35.100 Everyone is always in the comments like: hE'S-HE'S GONNA SNAP ANY MINUTE! I KNOW IT! That's not the case, I promise. 00:05:35.200 --> 00:05:38.840 Probably was a bit close for a while, but we're past that now. 00:05:38.840 --> 00:05:45.580 We're past that, we're moving forward. THANK YOU FOR WATCHING THIS VIDEO, and as always, sister fister. 00:05:47.480 --> 00:05:48.420 Kazoo Kid: Wait a minute! 00:05:48.760 --> 00:05:49.320 I forgot! 00:05:50.060 --> 00:05:55.740 Tuber simulator is getting a new update, it's basically Simcity... the update. 00:05:56.620 --> 00:06:00.680 It's really cool, it's my favorite update so far– I know– *laughs* dead game! 00:06:00.680 --> 00:06:04.740 but it's really fun, if you haven't checked it out in a while I definitely recommend checking it out now 00:06:04.740 --> 00:06:08.300 We have the egg update, the pixelings, it's really cool, 00:06:08.300 --> 00:06:11.240 and uh, I think you guys are really gonna like this one 00:06:11.240 --> 00:06:14.560 so, if you haven't played the game in a while, now is a great time to check it out. 00:06:14.560 --> 00:06:22.860 That's another thing, your creations in that game are so fucking cool and creative as well, I love the community that is still playing tuber and... 00:06:23.880 --> 00:06:31.260 Yeah just check it out, link in– in bio, buy my merch... and also... buy my merch. Thank you.