Not even the best of notions
could deal with this wave of emotions
It came down like a hurricane
I don't want to be washed up here again
I'll convince myself today
It will all turn out okay
I'll tell myself as my friends fade away
Leaving me here
Like I would forget her
Still waiting here
For things to get better
Seeing them just makes me sick
and makes me wish I could have it
I've fully justified
the way that I still feel inside
I'm leaving
It's no longer relieving
that they keep on believing
in me
Flashbacks are running through my head
Her words like a gun in hand
I think back on everything I said
I keep getting shot down where I stand
I've given up on my senses
They've failed me like their false pretenses
I'll convince myself today
It will all turn out okay
I'll repeat myself as my friends fade away
Leaving me here
Like I would forget her
Still waiting here
For things to get better
Seeing them just makes me sick
and makes me wish I could have it
I've fully justified
the way that I still feel inside
I'm leaving
It's no longer relieving
that they keep on believing
in me
Seeing them just makes me sick
and I can't take more of this shit
I won't feel justified
the way that I've been brushed aside
I'm leaving
It's no longer relieving
that they keep on believing
in me
Forget the past; I'm in the present
I've done all that I can to keep them close
I try not to regret all of the time spent
waiting for her and them, the ones who knew me most
Patience, they said, well I'd be patient til I'm dead
with all the subtleties they'll never bring to light
In all of the memories we built, I still see her eyes full of guilt
I know I burned away the chance to make this right