I don't want to let go. I've been on this road so long that I don't know any other direction. This road leads to a long, blinding end. And IT IS the worse kind of pain I've known.

I wish this video never had to happen... as in... I didn't have to make it. I don't know how this is the reality we are living in. It's a curse. My heart hurts more everyday. The one thing that gave me happiness and meaning in my life is broken. My soul is incomplete when their friendship is incomplete.

Linkin Park is all I ever obsessed over. For 5 years, my thoughts were always connected with LP. Especially with the Linkin Ponies. I made characters of them, I had made it even more personal. I love the guys more than my own family. And seeing their family broken is so heart wrenching. It's an indescribable pain.

Never in a million years did I think this would happen. Especially not this early. I expected LP to give me joy way into collage. Now I have to gather the courage to finish projects I've already started. I have a music video, that will take months to finish, but it will also be a tribute. I can only hope the guys will be able to see it then.
I wish I had made things faster. I wish I didn't waste time.

To think One More Light came out only 2 months before that day. I was in love with it, I couldn't stop listening. I was excited for more amazing music like it in the future. At least he left us with his best work. I wish I could have seen it live... I never been to a concert, I had bought tickets earlier this year. But now my dream of seeing my favorite band live is crushed forever.

I was originally going to use a piano cover of LOATR, but I decided that it made the video WAY too sad. And the original song is slightly longer. It's so hard to listen to his voice. 

Art (c) Kaciekk
Music (c) Linkin Park