SURPRISE! :D
Rusty's back with yet another happy song about death! *And everybody cheered and cheered, tears of joy falling down their cheeks as they sang along to the happy tunes of "My world is gone" and "How do you live when theres death abound". It was, of course, unbeknownst to them that the source of these happy lyrics was a mind deep in the catacombs of existential torment. Not necessarily a "bad" form of toment, but a kinda creepy-uppy kind of torment that just floats around in the background with a "you're not doing life right" kind of judgement in it's eyes. This was not a particularly effective situation, as the torment itself didn't know what it wanted the mind to do. It just knew that, whatever the mind did, it was wrong, and that was that.

So, the mind which was the source of those happy tunes took a break from making happy tunes to do other things that - in the least - atleast wasn't particularly important to it. Like Chinese, for example. It liked Chinese. It still likes Chinese. But eventually reality catched up to the mind: It had a whole lot more things that it didn't care much for which needed attending to! So, not deciding that failing Chinese was a good option, it failed Chinese, and started to work at an office, while still of course staying in the Chinese rooms a couple of days a week, just to feel the dread of not spending enough time at either place. It was clear now what the mind wanted to do: Everything in the world that wasn't fun or conductive to it's health and individual growth. No, Instead the mind started wearing nice outfits, went to college, aquired aquaintances and a half-hearted education so that someday, it could be sold as a complete package, proud of the things everyone else wanted it to accomplish in life. But somehow in the middle of all this the mind felt a frustration. Something in the background, just staring, judging. The mind thought about death and it's implications, and considered the risks for it to happen - it was an uncertainty, not too bad compared to earlier times, but worry was real.

So, a sad day the mind decided to do something it liked, just a one time: a song. It wasn't necessarily a good song, nor always too inspired, but it was a song, that tried to explain a part, a very small part, of what the mind was feeling. Despite some comedy here and there, It wasn't a happy song; the tunes were glad, sure, and the ending was nice enough, but the message was dark. Still, in that darkness there was a half-hearted optimism, expressed through perhaps sudden lyric changes in the end, but still, it was a small glimpse of the mind's personality and existence, as it exists underneath it's market value. It has been well and happy before, and it can be again, but many forces, internal and external, does not want it to be, and until such a time the mind can find away to fight or dispell them, who knows what will happen.

Dramatic? No.
...Well ok, a little bit..

Lyrics:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/ovxmt60hiek3qqc/In%20the%20coming%20explosion.rtf?dl=0

Download:
MP3: https://www.dropbox.com/s/job3wvo5a1qritc/Explosion%20take%202%20-%20final.mp3?dl=0

WAW: https://www.dropbox.com/s/7ld184jm93347ue/Explosion%20take%202%20-%20final.wav?dl=0