WEBVTT Kind: captions Language: en 00:00:00.371 --> 00:00:01.572 - Question. 00:00:01.572 --> 00:00:03.812 How much of this is all gonna be public? 00:00:03.812 --> 00:00:05.125 Like if I write in there about 00:00:05.125 --> 00:00:07.235 my deepest, darkest fantasies, 00:00:07.235 --> 00:00:09.048 will this be displayed to the people of YouTube? 00:00:09.048 --> 00:00:14.048 (upbeat piano music) 00:00:23.504 --> 00:00:25.824 - So I was thinking about my first time journaling, 00:00:25.824 --> 00:00:27.704 and I was in sixth grade, 00:00:27.704 --> 00:00:28.704 and I'd written this journal, 00:00:28.704 --> 00:00:29.638 and my friends found the journal, 00:00:29.638 --> 00:00:31.291 and read it out loud, 00:00:31.291 --> 00:00:33.021 and laughed at me, 00:00:33.021 --> 00:00:34.409 so I through the journal in the trash. 00:00:34.409 --> 00:00:36.841 - I kept several journals as a child. 00:00:36.841 --> 00:00:39.871 I would write who my crush was, 00:00:39.871 --> 00:00:42.106 and what I wanted to do to my enemy. 00:00:42.106 --> 00:00:43.971 - I'm coming in as a grown woman, 00:00:43.971 --> 00:00:46.254 with no journaling experience. 00:00:46.254 --> 00:00:48.138 - I had this rad Farrari notebook, 00:00:48.138 --> 00:00:51.357 and like every other journal I've ever had, 00:00:51.357 --> 00:00:53.698 I did about three entries, 00:00:53.698 --> 00:00:55.739 and then that was the last entry. 00:00:55.739 --> 00:00:57.138 - Kinda hoping that maybe I'll at least 00:00:57.138 --> 00:00:58.555 fill up half the book. 00:00:58.555 --> 00:00:59.984 - I'm excited to journal, 00:00:59.984 --> 00:01:02.374 because this is gonna be retribution 00:01:02.374 --> 00:01:03.948 for my stolen journal, 00:01:03.948 --> 00:01:05.955 when I was abroad, in college. 00:01:07.035 --> 00:01:09.142 - [Allison] Olay, it's journal time. 00:01:09.142 --> 00:01:10.822 I'm in my bedroom. 00:01:11.272 --> 00:01:13.002 There's my journal. 00:01:14.482 --> 00:01:16.228 It's happening! 00:01:16.368 --> 00:01:18.629 - I'm hanging out in the back of my mini-van, 00:01:18.629 --> 00:01:20.288 and I'm about to do 00:01:20.288 --> 00:01:21.948 my first entry, 00:01:22.978 --> 00:01:25.688 in my journal. 00:01:25.688 --> 00:01:27.446 - So far, it's been kinda tough 00:01:27.446 --> 00:01:30.076 cuz I'm outta practice, my hand hurts, 00:01:30.076 --> 00:01:32.416 and I'm not exactly sure 00:01:32.416 --> 00:01:33.901 what I'm supposed to be writing about. 00:01:33.901 --> 00:01:37.113 - I have usually been journaling so far, 00:01:37.113 --> 00:01:39.746 in the evenings, in my dining room, 00:01:39.746 --> 00:01:41.379 which is where I am now. 00:01:41.379 --> 00:01:43.501 - Hmm. I haven't been doing that well. 00:01:43.501 --> 00:01:44.794 I'm gonna be honest. 00:01:44.794 --> 00:01:48.364 - (energizing music) 00:01:48.364 --> 00:01:49.869 - [Colin] I spend way too much time sitting there going, 00:01:49.869 --> 00:01:52.661 "I should be journaling! I should be journaling!" 00:01:52.661 --> 00:01:54.128 Don't you guys do that? 00:01:54.128 --> 00:01:55.444 - Oh. It just comes out. 00:01:55.444 --> 00:01:57.631 It's like word vomit for me, 00:01:57.631 --> 00:01:58.561 and drawing vomit. 00:01:58.561 --> 00:02:00.069 I'm just like all over the place in this thing. 00:02:00.069 --> 00:02:02.406 And then my cat plays with this string, 00:02:02.406 --> 00:02:03.761 and it's so cute and amazing. 00:02:03.761 --> 00:02:04.661 (laughter) 00:02:04.661 --> 00:02:06.673 - At first, it was like, what do I want to write about? 00:02:06.673 --> 00:02:08.861 And then it's just kinda like coming out of me. 00:02:08.861 --> 00:02:12.591 - I mean, it is interesting to have a journal, 00:02:12.591 --> 00:02:17.061 which feels like the offline, most inner thoughts, 00:02:17.061 --> 00:02:21.361 versus like all the social media that I work in. 00:02:21.361 --> 00:02:23.311 - "To me it's seems like Instagram and Twitter, 00:02:23.311 --> 00:02:25.361 "and all of those things are such a carefully, 00:02:25.361 --> 00:02:26.878 "architectured version of how someone 00:02:26.878 --> 00:02:28.284 "wants to present their life. 00:02:28.284 --> 00:02:30.321 "And journaling, essentially, at least for me, 00:02:30.321 --> 00:02:32.168 "about the messy, complicated, 00:02:32.168 --> 00:02:33.328 "not-so-sunny thoughts." 00:02:33.328 --> 00:02:36.831 - You know, Hillary got that journaling 00:02:36.831 --> 00:02:38.531 versus Instagram thing in my head, 00:02:38.531 --> 00:02:40.033 and I haven't stopped thinking about that. 00:02:40.033 --> 00:02:40.968 And she's totally right. 00:02:40.968 --> 00:02:44.114 It's very, very introspective. 00:02:44.114 --> 00:02:45.575 - Journaling is the opposite of Instagram. 00:02:45.575 --> 00:02:47.445 and I've never journaled before, 00:02:47.445 --> 00:02:49.310 and I've definitely Instagrammed before. 00:02:49.310 --> 00:02:52.702 And it's interesting to do both, in the same day. 00:02:52.702 --> 00:02:54.195 - I'm a journaler at heart. 00:02:54.195 --> 00:02:56.823 It's just a way to create every day, 00:02:56.823 --> 00:02:58.587 in some type a way. 00:02:58.587 --> 00:03:00.429 "When did you stop dancing?" 00:03:00.429 --> 00:03:01.933 "When did you stop singing?" 00:03:01.933 --> 00:03:04.131 "When did you stop being enchanted by stories?" 00:03:04.131 --> 00:03:06.000 "When did you stop finding comfort 00:03:06.000 --> 00:03:08.131 in the sweet territory of silence?" 00:03:08.131 --> 00:03:09.967 I think the question I would ask myself is, 00:03:09.967 --> 00:03:12.120 "When did you stop creating?" 00:03:13.270 --> 00:03:15.463 I'm enjoying just kinda taking 00:03:15.463 --> 00:03:16.758 this time for myself every day. 00:03:16.758 --> 00:03:18.428 - So I've been journaling a lot 00:03:18.428 --> 00:03:21.228 in my van, parked places. 00:03:21.228 --> 00:03:22.261 I like to do it, 00:03:22.261 --> 00:03:25.761 cuz new environment is kinda inspiring. 00:03:25.761 --> 00:03:28.305 - My boyfriend is recording with his band right now, 00:03:28.305 --> 00:03:31.341 and I'm doodling in my journal. 00:03:31.341 --> 00:03:33.861 It's really fun to draw and write in my journal, 00:03:33.861 --> 00:03:37.550 while I'm around such creative and inspiring people. 00:03:37.550 --> 00:03:39.060 - So I think I'm getting a little bit better 00:03:39.060 --> 00:03:40.401 at this journaling thing. 00:03:40.401 --> 00:03:42.505 I've realized I can write down the weird dreams 00:03:42.505 --> 00:03:44.319 that I have about Tina Fey. 00:03:44.319 --> 00:03:47.192 - I've been trying to have a little bit more fun 00:03:47.192 --> 00:03:48.943 with the journal, 00:03:48.943 --> 00:03:51.127 and do drawings and stuff. 00:03:51.127 --> 00:03:56.127 But it also just feels like a chore, all the time. 00:03:56.228 --> 00:03:58.060 Just like my nightly home work assignment, 00:03:58.060 --> 00:03:59.386 draw in the journal. 00:04:02.476 --> 00:04:04.438 - This one I think you'll enjoy. 00:04:04.438 --> 00:04:06.162 - "I am so overwriting, 00:04:06.162 --> 00:04:08.472 in this damn book, all the time." 00:04:08.472 --> 00:04:09.233 - I quit! 00:04:09.233 --> 00:04:11.323 So I'm not that into journaling. 00:04:11.323 --> 00:04:12.930 What are your reasons you don't like it? 00:04:12.930 --> 00:04:14.371 - I write nothing important. 00:04:14.371 --> 00:04:17.532 - It's like, "I bought a projector, today. 00:04:17.532 --> 00:04:18.945 "Let's see how I like it. 00:04:18.945 --> 00:04:21.224 "I've been trying to figure out the best way to set it up. 00:04:21.224 --> 00:04:22.202 "I need a screen." 00:04:22.202 --> 00:04:24.324 Why did I write that down? 00:04:24.324 --> 00:04:25.494 You know, in retrospect, 00:04:25.494 --> 00:04:27.964 I wish I'd a hired a journaling ghostwriter. 00:04:27.964 --> 00:04:29.724 - I think the number one thing I learned, 00:04:29.724 --> 00:04:33.385 I don't want to journal to like, reflect on my life. 00:04:33.385 --> 00:04:34.776 I think it's more fun 00:04:34.776 --> 00:04:37.979 to talk about silly, weird stuff. 00:04:37.979 --> 00:04:40.318 "Red ink. Red book. Red shorts!" 00:04:40.318 --> 00:04:42.525 I was writing this while wearing red shorts, 00:04:42.525 --> 00:04:44.474 with a red pen, in a red book, 00:04:44.474 --> 00:04:46.057 so I was really excited about that. 00:04:46.057 --> 00:04:47.908 I realized that being looser 00:04:47.908 --> 00:04:51.549 really allowed me to have more fun with it. 00:04:51.549 --> 00:04:53.204 - Instead of going through Instagram, 00:04:53.204 --> 00:04:54.344 or going on Twitter or whatever, 00:04:54.344 --> 00:04:56.785 I would doodle in my journal for a second, 00:04:56.785 --> 00:04:58.040 and I liked that a lot. 00:04:58.040 --> 00:05:00.019 - I learned there's a reason 00:05:00.019 --> 00:05:02.279 I haven't been journaling, for so many years, 00:05:02.279 --> 00:05:04.373 cuz like journaling is not my fav. 00:05:04.373 --> 00:05:05.320 - I think my big take-away 00:05:05.320 --> 00:05:07.190 was that journaling should be used as a sketchpad 00:05:07.190 --> 00:05:08.792 for your ideas, and your thoughts. 00:05:08.792 --> 00:05:11.075 A place to let your mind wander. 00:05:11.075 --> 00:05:12.692 - I feel like there'll be another period after this 00:05:12.692 --> 00:05:14.353 where it'll make sense to journal again. 00:05:14.353 --> 00:05:16.392 - Well I love that my cat loves the string. 00:05:16.392 --> 00:05:19.069 That's like my favorite thing ever. 00:05:19.069 --> 00:05:20.906 My cat loves journaling, just as much as I do.