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- [Voiceover] This is me suffering

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from another anxiety attack in Dallas,

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24 hours after bullet casings

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were picked up from the streets,

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I went to Dallas.

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24 hours before that,

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I was at a black lives matter protest.

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If you were to ask me how Dallas was,

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I could not deliver a quick summary,

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but I can tell you all the things

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that ran through my mind,

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because they haven't left me.

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Instead of visiting
Dallas to go see museums

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and eat barbecue,

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my hotel sat right across the street

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from where the shooting took place.

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I couldn't eat,

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and I couldn't sleep,

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so I just did what I do best,

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and that's film.

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Children, some who didn't understand,

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and unfortunately some who did,

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and it was not about a city divided,

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but a city that came together in mourning,

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and now their lives
are stricken with fear.

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I thought about how many
anxiety attacks I had

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in one week.

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It was six.

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I couldn't breathe,

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and all I wanted to do was breathe.

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- I thank you for the love.

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You know, love travels a long ways.

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- [Voiceover] And, I met a homeless woman,

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and I thought about the
last time I had cried,

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so I cried with her.

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- Thank you.

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- Just coming together as a community,

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that's what we really need to do.

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- [Voiceover] My Uber drivers
became taxi cab confessionals.

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Some revealing how they were
in the midst of the tragedy.

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I didn't want to remember
Dallas for its tragedy,

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but even as I tried to leave Dallas,

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the security level was so high
that it was hard to leave,

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and even as I did,

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all I could think about were the people

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that were left behind with pain.

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When I got to the airport
I looked up to the news

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and saw that there was
shooting in Michigan

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not too far from my grandfather,

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and it made me think,

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in the midst of tragedies like Orlando,

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Baton Rouge, Minnesota, and now Dallas,

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where was I going to travel to next?

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(upbeat music)