(sad music)
- When I'm depressed, trying to do anything
feels like trying to start a car when there is no gas
in the car.
You can really want to go somewhere,
you can really wanna do the thing,
but you literally don't have the means.
It can feel as heavy as a boulder, or as light to carry
around as my fingernail, but it's as much a part of me
as that fingernail is.
- Depression to me feels like a giant weight,
kind of like one of those big dumb bells.
It starts right in your gut, and you just feel it
slowly intensifying.
So it starts out small, and then all of the sudden it gets
a little bit bigger, a little bit bigger,
it goes down to your stomach, it goes up to your heart,
it kind of spreads throughout your entire body.
And it just gets slowly heavier and heavier
and just a little bit harder to deal with and a little
bit harder to carry.
And then it gets really overwhelming.
- Having anxiety feels like a million bubbles filled with
things that could go wrong that are just pushing on me.
And each bubble is filled with something
that could go wrong.
And all of the things that could go wrong,
are irrational to a normal person, but to someone
with anxiety, the thing that could go wrong feels
like the worst thing in the world.
- It kind of feels like rolling in a ball down a hill.
You do start to feel a little bit like a roly poly,
and you just kind of collapse in on yourself.
Like one little kind of thing that you get fixated on
and then it just kind of starts to spin and spin and spin
around you until you kind of feel like you can't control
all the things that are worrying you anymore.
- I have obsessive compulsive disorder,
to me that's always felt like having a separate
cloud of a mind outside of my own mind.
Sort of a buzzing gray hive of thoughts that come
in and out of my own brain, and can be busy
or less busy depending on how I'm feeling on the day.
- OCD is like a faucet dripping over and over
and over again, and you keep having all these irrational
thoughts, and you know they're irrational,
but you just keep having them.
And they are so important to you in that moment,
and it's all led by fear.
- ADD feels kind of like being this high functioning robot,
but if you went into the mind of the robot and actually
learned what the robot is thinking, it's just like
a bunch of Katy Perry songs and old childhood memories.
- It has this huge importance to you.
- This is the thing that actually impacts many, many,
many people, but people don't actually do anything
about it because we are trained to think that it's
not a problem, or it's something that we can control
when sometimes it actually isn't.
- There is a lot of beauty that can come out of it.
There are strengths to it for sure, and I think a lot of
creative people especially, have figured out ways to
connect ideas and use it in a creative sort of way.