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- It hurt a lot

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because it was the thing I loved the most,

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but they were using that word

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and insulting me with it.

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Okay, so I got called a Trekkie.

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I guess when I was younger

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I didn't realize I wasn't cool,

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and the stuff that I was into wasn't cool.

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- Venom is this spiderman character

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that is made of black goo,

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and he has big white eyes
and really jagged teeth.

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- It's probably surprising
or hard to imagine,

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but when I was a little kid

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my skin was even fairer than it is now.

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- My existence from the age of 11

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until the age of 17,
when I left high school,

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was miserable.

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- My hair was very short

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and I didn't have very straight teeth.

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So I think when people saw me

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I just resembled the character to them.

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- It was really hurtful,

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because I cared so much about Star Trek

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and thought it was so neat.

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And instead, it turned
into an insult, and...

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Yeah, it hurt a lot.

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- Probably the most common name

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that they called me was ghost.

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Any time there was a scary story

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they'd be like, "and it
was Hannah at the end."

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- Not only did I get called ugly

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but I had a bottle thrown
at my head one time.

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I got slammed into a door.

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- Started this whole
insecure downward spiral

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of me as a teen, going to
tanning beds all the time

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and trying to be something I wasn't.

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- I did really well for myself.

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I got out of that town,

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I got a master's from Columbia

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on a competitive scholarship.

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So thanks for, I guess...

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that shitty experience made
me into a very strong person.

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(uplifting music)

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- When it exploded it felt really good

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to just see it just boom up like that.

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- It feels like it takes
the word away from them.

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And now it can be my word.

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- Kind of a thing that
lingers and weighs on you.

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So I was not expecting to feel so happy

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after doing that.

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But I'm overjoyed right now.

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- We're all in this together.

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We should be nice, we should
be kind to each other.

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And just make it as pleasant as possible

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while we're here.