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- [Voiceover] I cry
every time my mother says

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she's proud of my weight loss.

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She still doesn't know I'm anorexic.

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(exotic chiming music)

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- [Voiceover] Whenever my
boyfriend sees my body,

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I'm scared that he'll notice I'm anorexic.

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- [Voiceover] I tell people
I'm on a liquid diet.

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What they don't realize
is that I'm anorexic,

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and the only liquid in my diet is water.

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- [Voiceover] I have anorexia.

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My head keeps telling me,
pretty girls don't eat.

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- [Voiceover] I'm anorexic.

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I hate myself with a passion.

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The only time I eat is
when I'm going drinking,

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because being drunk is the only thing

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that takes away the pain.

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- [Voiceover] I only eat
in front of my parents

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so they won't find out I'm anorexic

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and send me to recovery.

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- [Voiceover] I tell
everyone I'm losing weight

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because I exercise,

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but the truth is I'm anorexic.

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- [Voiceover] I'm anorexic
and I'm trying to get better.

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I can't stand that every
restaurant displays calories.

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It's so triggering.

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- [Voiceover] I denied the
fact that I have anorexia.

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Today I saw my sister start to

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hate on her body the way I do.

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She's eight, this really hit home.

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I need to change for her sake.

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- [Voiceover] I recovered
from anorexia four years ago.

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I used to pray to God
that he would let me die.

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But surviving has made
me a stronger person.

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I'm proud of who I've become.

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(ambient music)

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(creaky swiveling)