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- The compliments from people,
kind of praising me for

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losing weight that I didn't need to lose,

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it really did, like,

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help kick start a full on eating disorder.

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- You know, your aunts or uncles,

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or your parents, whatever,

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might say something to
you thinking that it's

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just an observation.

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- I know that people
mean well when they say,

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especially like, you look good,

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have you lost weight?

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- You would think that, like,

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getting compliments about your weight,

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and how you look is always gonna be, like,

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a positive thing, if it's
like, a positive comment.

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- When I was 15 years old,

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I was put on this medication,

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and a side effect was weight loss,

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and this girl came up to me,

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she's like, "Oh my God, Mandy,

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"I want your hip bones."

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Over, like, a year and a half,

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I lost, like, 20 more pounds.

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The compliments kind of
stopped at some point,

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because it really became
obvious that it wasn't

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good anymore.

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- In college, I went through
a really tough time where I

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was starving myself essentially.

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People were reinforcing
it by saying, like,

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"Oh, you look like, so great!"

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like, "you look so fit."

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I was not fit, I was not fit mentally,

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and I was not fit physically.

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- I lost a lot of weight,

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like I went from maybe, like a 12, 10,

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to a 6, 4, and I came
back after the summer,

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before I even said hello to
people, everyone was like,

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"Oh my God! You look so great!

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"You look amazing!"

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I didn't really know how to
feel because I didn't lose the

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weight on purpose,

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and I didn't lose it in a healthy way,

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like, I was just really sad
and depressed that whole

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school year.

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- I lost a ton of weight
after a really bad breakup,

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and I remember going
out for the first time,

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in like a month, and my
friends looking at me,

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and being like, "Oh, you look so good!

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"You lost so much weight!"

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I had, like, conflicted feelings.

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I was, like, yeah, I'm thin,

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and now I can, like, go out,

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and get a better guy,

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but at the same time, I was, like,

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well, I'm thin because I've
been lying on my bed for

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the past month and a half.

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- After I gave birth, people
were already mentioning that,

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"Hey, you look great!"

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And, hey, "you're already
losing the baby weight."

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A lot of women are posting
their progress throughout

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the pregnancy, and then their
progress post-pregnancy,

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so there's a lot of
pressure to be able to keep

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up with that.

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- I, like, created this pressure,

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and this fear of, what
happens if I don't keep it up,

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if I don't maintain it.

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- I think in general, we have
to take a little bit more

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of an emphasis away from the number.

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- Complimenting somebody's weight,

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I don't think is the best
compliment you can give, period.

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- I feel like, not all
weight loss is intentional.

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- Just tell them, like,

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hey, you're looking great today,

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even if it's just saying, like,

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hey, cool shirt.

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You don't need to make it about weight.

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- I like that when people said,

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oh, like, your chest is out,

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like, I don't know,

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like, something that, noticed
my new found confidence.

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- If I'm happy with
myself, then it's all good.

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