I really hope this video won't change the way you see me, because of what I'm trying to do and break out of. I'll be real I'm NOT satisfied with the life i live right now. and I'm to be quite frank just DONE with the bs. But I live. and that's what matters. 

One day, we'll laugh this off as the last and just be happy. I don't know what this video will do, but at the least... I'm done hiding how I REALLY feel about things and how much I auctally struggle. I have a good worklife though, and I know I can make a difference, but some things just needed to get off my chest. 

Even if one lie is enough to question all truth's, you are NOT alone even if you can't be together. 

I reject to love myself, but that doesn't mean I don't love YOU.