The past is a hard thing to escape.

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This is a remastered version of the song I previewed last year, with a new chorus and hopefully better sound overall. It's uploaded so that it fits chronologically with the story this album tells.

Here's a link to the old one, which will now become unlisted - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3jPeTE7mW8E

There's not much else to say here. So we'll go straight to the lyrics.

[Verse 1]

Have you ever wanted something so bad, that to just to have it,
You would plot and scheme, lie and thieve and cheat so you could grab it
Just to have it the bag, you would stab backs- kablow!
There goes everything you had built up because you had to have it now

That was me, I'd never bend or sway,
I'd push over, kick and step on anyone in my way,
But at the end of the day, after my course had been run,
I took a long look in the mirror and thought 'What have I done?'

See the road that I'd taken I'd mistaken for right,
And now I'm shaking at the waking of the demon inside,
Cause though I've opened my eyes my past still isn't gone,
I just swear to do better as I move myself along

But, see me, I can't forgive, cause I'm still walking on ice,
I'm rolling dice with everyone as I try to make it right
Some are kind and generous, some say forget it,
And even though it shouldn't hurt me I let it

I want to say

[Chorus]

I'm sorry, for everything I've done
Don't let the sun set on me,
I'm not gonna cry, I'm just gonna try
To be as better as I can be,

And I know that I've hurt you and I've made you sad,
So I'll never go back again,
Just know that I'll never be as you remember me
Now that I found my friends,

[Verse 2]

I'm mostly over the part where I get mentioned real low,
Cause the scars don't hurt as bad when I can just let them show
Now that I know I don't have to be alone or afraid
Cause I'm stronger every day with the friends that I've made

And I'll stress it, for the best, I've learned my lesson, I'm mending,
And the credit is sent directly to my friends, no pretending
The ones who warily spared me, as they verily cared
When compared to me anyone who was there looked like Rarity

But what's tearing me is back in the world that I trace to
Where the one I betrayed is the one I can't face,
Oh how I want to show Celestia the good I've embraced,
But apologizing is different to someone you disgraced,

And besides, banished means banished, no royal command
Can be undemanded, cause things didn't go as you planned,
Where I stand, I'm just a failure, the student not missed,
I know she's pissed, just look at what she did to her sis,

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

The bridges I've burned
The lessons I've learned
The pieces I start to replace

My past has passed
But its legacy lasts,
All the things I couldn't face

[Verse 3]

I'm finally at a place where she might not resent me,
But it took falling to the ground with no crowd to catch me,
Without it, I'd have never came around, or found
Out I was wrong, when everybody was out to get me

And I can shout it now, but no matter how loud
My voice resounds, it's bound by reality's boundaries
She'll never hear me, she'll never want be near me
Remembering her presence, oh, sears me dearly

It's terror, I can't bear it, I can't rise to the task,
Every time I write a letter it ends up in the trash,
Cause every time I try to think of what to say I just crash,
Cause this fear that turns me burns all of my hopes into ash

And if I ask Rainbow Dash or Applejack or Twilight,
They'll say I'm being rash or overreacting, and I might
Agree, but today, I've got my failures I'll face,
And here I'll stay stationed, until my debt's been erased

[Chorus]

[Chorus, but different]

I'm sorry, for everything I've done
Don't let the sun set on me
After all my crying, just know that I'm trying
To let you know that they've set me free

And I just know that it hurts me, and it makes me sad
That I'll never see you again
I just hope my memory can be a memory
And maybe we could be friends

Because I'll never be how you remember me
Now that I've found my friends