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Bandcamp: https://ataraxiamusician.bandcamp.com/album/lost-and-found
iTunes: https://music.apple.com/us/album/lost-and-found/1469642170
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/iamataraxia/spirals-new-album
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This album is a closely linked collection of tracks produced in the last two years, from the middle of 2017 to the middle of 2019. Together, they tell a story of ego and self-deprecation, of love and loss, of friends and enemies, of harm and recovery, and the process of self-realization.

This is not my favourite album. It might not be your favourite album. I can see so many flaws in my own work I don't know where the flaws end and the artistry begins. But it's mine. For once I've produced a complete work without external forces assisting in my creative vision. And that is something I am immensely proud of.

Thank you for taking the time to listen to LOST AND FOUND, time you could have spent doing something—anything—else. I hope these tracks can mean more to you than they ever could to me. I hope you can see yourself inside the rhythms, I wish for you to create your own narratives around these lyrics.

Thanks for spending your time with me.

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STORY // (6) - we all fall down
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Twilight rubbed her eyes as she shakily rose from her knees to her feet, coughing. The sound bounced rapidly around the atrium at the bottom of the long crystal staircase, sickening the air with delirium. The world slowly came into focus as she blinked and adjusted her dust-coated spectacles. All she saw was mirror at the bottom of the staircase, her own pale eyes staring back into her.

"Ugh..." she groaned, "Spike?"

The hard, kinetic "k" of the final phoneme scampered away up the staircase, fading away into the ether beyond. She took a step forward, looking in turn to her disheveled hair, her dust-coated clothes, and finally settling on the large worn patches on the knees of her pants.

"How long have I been here?" she wondered aloud. "Spike?"

Twilight turned around. All she saw was the same purple crystal. Not to mention the other mirrors. So many mirrors.

"Spike?"

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LYRICS
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(What time is it?)

Stay and starve the pain
Stay and starve the pain

(It’s like I can’t even remember how my hands are supposed to feel.)

Stay and starve the pain
Stay and starve the pain

Feed the mind we all fall down to
Feed the mind we all fall down to
Grieve, to grieve
Feed the mind we all fall down to
Feed the mind we all fall down to
Grieve, to grieve

I grieve for myself tonight
(Dead, dead)
Under weight so heavy
It is all my own
Every struggle a remnant of history
Yet still so real to me

(Feed the mind) I can’t keep feeling like I’m dead inside
(We all fall down) In an empty space with our hearts beating wrong
(Feed the mind) That I used to force myself to justify

We all fall down
And I need to leave these parts of me behind
Behind

(I guess it’s just one of those things, you know?
You think you’re getting better and it just—)

Stay and starve the pain
Stay and starve the pain
Feed the mind (I can’t keep feeling like I’m dead inside)
Stay and starve the pain
We all fall down (An empty space with our hearts beating wrong)
Stay and starve the pain
Stay and starve,
Stay and starve

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FOLLOW
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YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCceY2R-jpIgwpVzxxsY2L8A
Bandcamp: http://ataraxiamusician.bandcamp.com
Soundcloud: http://soundcloud.com/iamataraxia