Hey everyone, let's get serious for a minute
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So, this song was inspired by two things. First, i was thinking about Luna, specifically after she turned into nightmare moon, came back, got beat, was good again, etc. Then she created the Tantubus to haunt her to "punish herself" because she couldn't let go of the past. Now to me, at least, that seems like sounds a bit like self harming in a different way, which is a symptom of depression. And I was thinking about how no one noticed that Luna could have had depression.

Then I started thinking about how it's really easy to miss that people have depression. It's not always just "oh doom and gloom" 24/7. And then if they do realize it, they think it's an easy fix. "Just stop being sad." "Just think of happy things. "It's the past, move on." I don't think a lot of people actually understand how bad depression can be, and difficult it can be to get out of it.

So I made this song. As someone who has had and still has depression, I'm offering my perspective on the subject. A little bit of a look at the mind of someone struggling with said issue.

Anyways, hope you guys enjoy it, I worked really hard on this song, and it's also the second "rap" song i've released on this channel. i'm very self conscious about my rapping, but several people told me to go for it, so i am. ^^
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Download:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/kv57hr8a8esmu45/I%27m%20Still%20Here.wav?dl=0
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LYRICS!!

Listen
it's not like I want be sad
Like when i feel dead all day
This pain is eating away
You think i want to cry
About me, and the way I look, and the way I talk,
And I dance, I cry, I scream, i die
A little bit every time
I Look to heaven yet I see hell
Like listen, things aren't going too well
I might seem like I'm fine on the outside
But the outside's just my empty shell
Because inside, I can feel me wasting away
Everyday, but fine, it's okay, I'm fine
Okay, I'm not fine, I'm dead, so long ago I lost my will
My will to survive and now I can't move on
Trying to breathe to keep me alive

Just think of happy things
Or stop dwelling on the past, why do you think
It'll never be okay again
Can't you see the your happy ending
No, okay, that's not how it works
Should I write another verse
Explaining to you why I can't just
Buck up, chin up, grin wide, stand tall, move on
When my whole mind is gone
It's gone to the pain I feel
I feel, it's real, it's there
It's everwhere inside me
Filled to the brim with sorrow, pain and suffering
Don't tell me everything will be okay
I hold the gun in one hand
And I see the rope
The knife is at my throat and I can't breathe
Darkness fills my eyes and I can't stop crying

When all of me is dying alone
Alone with no one to help me, or save me
From my self, I can't breathe
But that's okay
i'm used to the pain
All i've known is misery

I can't move on, so why should I fight
When forever the end is never in sight
Maybe death is where I belong
No one will miss me, or think of me when I'm gone
So goodbye
The moon is bright but the sun won't shine
On my broken heart so goodbye
I don't know what to say
So goodbye

Listen
I put down the gun and I looked at the sky
The stars reminded me of why
I'm still here, maybe there is still life
Until tomorrow, maybe I won't die
I promise I will try hardest to survive
When everything's against me I promise I will fight
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Welp hope you guys enjoyed it ;;

I want to clarify, yes I do have depression but i am okay. I have help and everything is going fine, so please don't worry about that.

On a lighter note, I'm going to bronycon in three days! I'm so excited, it's going to be amazing! Thank you all for your support in helping me get to bronycon, I can't thank you guys enough~

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